He had been dreading this. His feet felt heavy, clumsy as he trudged to the door, and he thought about leaving. About simply turning and walking away. As if not telling could reverse the events, could bring him back. Biggz knew better by know. He lifted a hand and knocked on the door
( ... )
Pest thinks about it a lot. What it would've been like if he had died in place of Dennis, in place of Jerome. If he had died along with them, even, leaving Moses alone with Biggz, sitting in Ron's weed room deliberately not talking about the empty spaces on the floor.
He bets Moses thinks about it too. That's probably why he's gotten so quiet all of a sudden, staring off at a distant spot in the wall. Thinking. Tragically analyzing every frame of memory.
"If I had just been one step closer..." Moses sometimes says, and he never finishes the sentence.
Pest sits beside him, and they don't talk about the last time they were here, Moses versus the monsters. Not talking about it makes it feel like a dream. They don't have to even accept the reality that Jerome won't come in whining about his sisters, and Dennis won't show up grumbling about his dad being a cunt. And Biggz. Biggz still sits at home, listening to Dennis' voicemail over and over again. He doesn't even talk anymore
( ... )
The five boys pre-film: if we can call them friends then we can call them on their telephones, and they won't pretend that they're too busy or that they're not alone, and if we can call them friends then we can call, holler at them down these hallowed halls.
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my whole heart hurts.
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He bets Moses thinks about it too. That's probably why he's gotten so quiet all of a sudden, staring off at a distant spot in the wall. Thinking. Tragically analyzing every frame of memory.
"If I had just been one step closer..." Moses sometimes says, and he never finishes the sentence.
Pest sits beside him, and they don't talk about the last time they were here, Moses versus the monsters. Not talking about it makes it feel like a dream. They don't have to even accept the reality that Jerome won't come in whining about his sisters, and Dennis won't show up grumbling about his dad being a cunt. And Biggz. Biggz still sits at home, listening to Dennis' voicemail over and over again. He doesn't even talk anymore ( ... )
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reads over and over jdaskgasg
pest touching moses' scars i can't
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thank you.
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