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bloodseal_soul

Array 149 // Voice

May 05, 2011 01:03

She's...

[Al's voice is soft, but thick. Not with tears, but with pain that somehow is beyond that. A numbness, a helplessness. He normally sounds so together, like he has everything under control, but right now he's small again. Small and utterly lost.]

Mom's gone.

[Click.]

where's winry when you need her, need to go break shit, there are no psychiatrists, letting go ain't so easy, he's still a kid deep down, mother, being an adult is so freaking hard, sick of saying goodbye, moment of weakness, that is the sound of his heart breaking, well that's just great

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madcuriosity May 5 2011, 07:10:19 UTC

A-Alphonse I'm sorry.

[Voice] bloodseal_soul May 5 2011, 07:23:10 UTC

[Adults aren't supposed to cry around children. He takes a deep, shaky breath but his voice is tight.]

It'll... I'm glad that she-

[Another shaky breath. He's having a terrible time coming up with something positive to tell her, or even thinking clearly.]

[Voice] madcuriosity May 5 2011, 07:25:36 UTC

You don't have to keep calm, Alphonse. It's not a bad thing to show you're sad.

[Voice] bloodseal_soul May 5 2011, 07:28:51 UTC

[Silence, on the other end of the line.]

She came here for us, somehow.

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[Voice] arrayed_back May 5 2011, 07:11:37 UTC

...Alphonse.

[The world is falling apart around her.

And she can't do anything to stop it.]

I can be over as quickly as you need me.

[Voice] bloodseal_soul May 5 2011, 07:24:51 UTC

I-I might- I might -- cry on you, Ms. Riza-

[Just a fair warning.]

[Voice] arrayed_back May 5 2011, 07:28:22 UTC

[That breaks her heart just a little bit more.]

I won't mention it.

[Voice] bloodseal_soul May 5 2011, 07:30:21 UTC

I appreciate it. Thank you.

[When it hits, it's going to be terrible.]

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[Offline] notamageiswear May 5 2011, 07:21:51 UTC

[Screw replying to this, he's finding Al right now.]

[Offline] bloodseal_soul May 5 2011, 07:27:21 UTC

[Al doesn't cling to him, or cry. Instead, he just... looks at him. As if maybe, somehow, something will make this right.]

[Offline] notamageiswear May 5 2011, 07:32:00 UTC

[Negi is a little out of breath, and he has to admit, his eyes are prickling with tears. But he won't cry. Not when Al is just barely keeping things in check.

He lifts one hand, putting it against Al's cheek, trying to give a shaky smile and failing.]

[Offline] bloodseal_soul May 5 2011, 07:34:40 UTC

[Al lifts a hand shakily, covering over Negi's. It's so easy, he thinks -- so easy for someone to disappear. And he may never see her again.

Just like last time, he doesn't understand. It just isn't sinking in. He's not holding it together, he's just so numb that he can't fall apart.]

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buntails May 5 2011, 07:42:42 UTC

I'm very sorry. Even though it means she's home, it hurts a lot to be separated from loved ones.

Would you like to be with someone? I know we don't know each other yet, but, I don't want to just ignore this, either.

bloodseal_soul May 5 2011, 07:49:27 UTC

... she'll be happier there.

[He sounds lost, as if he only heard bits of what she was saying.]

buntails May 5 2011, 07:50:38 UTC

It doesn't make it easier. I know that. It always hurts to lose someone. But, you're not alone. Let everyone help you, and it will be easier to bear.

bloodseal_soul May 5 2011, 08:21:22 UTC

... you're right.

[Al's voice shakes. It's distant, but there.]

I'm not.

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[Video] showchoirstar May 5 2011, 07:48:01 UTC

... Alphonse?

[Voice] bloodseal_soul May 5 2011, 07:57:49 UTC

[... nothing. He can't think of a single thing to say that will make this better.]

... yes?

[Voice] showchoirstar May 5 2011, 07:59:24 UTC

[She lets the feed switch back to voice.]

... if you need anything, I am here.

[Voice] bloodseal_soul May 5 2011, 08:01:18 UTC

...

I know. I'm not alone.

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