Hey everyone...I'm so very bored. Over-all, I am worn out. I really have been trying to show my responsible side of me to prove to my parents and everyone around me that I am not all that immature that them people think I am, and they obviously don't see an improvment in me for some reason. It really pisses me off too.
Mark is acting more childish ( Read more... )

RANDOM PICTURES TIME!


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Hey everyone that actually reads my entries...I just got up...I have a FUCKED UP room I have to clean the SHIT out of today before I leave to go hang out anywhere...I found the cutest kitty in the ditch when jimmy and I were walking to my house the other night...He is a smokey grey with a white belly and paws. There is nothing wrong with him and I ( Read more... )

Well, sorry I haven't updated in quite some time, but I promise since I have more time on my hands that I will update more often.
Well, lemme start like this:
Mark and I decided to end things as far as a relationship goes...Yat, he still wants to sleep with me. We were doing pretty good until He flipped out on me the other day cuz My brother wanted ( Read more... )

I feel so tired and over everything today. I feel like I've been making a huge effort to make differences in me and to be more positive but it every time I take a step forward it's like something else comes crashing down. I feel like every time I try I get further set back...I honestly feel cursed or fated to be unhappy. I adore my Mark but I hate ( Read more... )

Well it's been a hot minute since I've updated...yet again. I'm kinda in a daze right now due to the fact that I have been up all night and downed a bottle of prescription robotussin with codine...Not a good idea....not a good idea at fucking all.
This is how my day went...
I woke up around noonish cuz I had a doctors appt. at 2. I got ready and ( Read more... )

I'm upnorth right now for all you people that didn't know...I'll be up here until wednesday. I've been up here for about 4 days now...I miss Mark soo much. We are pretty much going back out. YAY!! I'm over my aunt Darlene's house right now. Dial up sux ass but it's all they have. You would think that since their so loaded with cash that they would ( Read more... )

Mark stayed the night tonight...
He snores sooooo damn loud! Everyone in this house that
is sleeping right now is snorring their asses off....and here I am
Being sick and I can't sleep!!

Mother fucker.
I have depression and it will not go away...It just wont.
So therefore I'm suffering, just suffering away in my own house and no one cares.
Not even myself.
I want to go to school. Fuck working at this point.
I just can't deal with that kind of stress.
I just want to better myself.
And having a job won't make me any better.
That will just ( Read more... )

So, last night before I went to bed the fuck that I went on a date with calls me....I'm like WTF! He said the reason why he didn't answer his phone is cuz his cuzin really did kill himself that night...I'm like....OKAY.....I'm having a rough time believeing that....but what if it IS true?? I don't want to feel like an ass ( Read more... )