Fear

[bloody_princess]

I fear for my own life some times. I'm not worried about what people might do to me. I'm worried about what my mind will do to me. Remembering things I don't want to remember. I think I really should have stayed and finished my treatment. Gotten rid of all this shit. I was able to get rid of my big pain/fear. The stuff about my Dad, but not the

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*bearhugs the little lady and kisses your temples*

[demonsreiche]

you are not alone yet, little lady. I know we had that little chat about you and your treatment. if you feel up to it, feel free to call me tonight (Wednesday) at home if you want to talk a little more about it. I want you to remember that you do have inner strengths you have yet to tap into. one of these days you will finally dig deep enough to find those wellsprings within yourself. remember they ARE there, and you WILL reach them. you are not going to "fall" into an abyss where there are none who care for you. the knives and blades are not the ones who love you - we are. I am. when they try to call you, try to remember us. please. *kisses your hair*

Re: *bearhugs the little lady and kisses your temples*

[bloody_princess]

You literary types and your way with words !
Thank You.
XXXOOO

I do have to try, gorgeous. occasionally I can succeed.

[demonsreiche]

*smiles at you and kisses your throat lightly* take care of yourself, gorgoeus. and I do mean that. be sure to be safe. and I really do hope you had a great weekend.

[bria]

Well, I don't know if it helps, but I think stuttering is so hot. Plus people who stutter tend to be smarter than usual.

I can't help much about the assaults; my nightmares are mostly about being in a shopping mall. Fear I can understand; pain, anger, and confusion. I think I know enough that I can say with certainty: whatever you feel, whatever they did to you, there is still love. And you got through it. That's a pretty strong place to start from, when everything else seems lost. Please love yourself for wanting to cut yourself rather than the multitude of other things you could do, then choose to do something else nice for yourself. Your blood is far too precious to spend it feeling bad about some assholes.

*hugs*

[bloody_princess]

*hhuuggss*
Tanxs babe.

something you have not gotten yet.

[demonsreiche]

Title: Monster In My Basement - It Get Worse - Got A Lot Of Questions

Re: something you have not gotten yet.

[bloody_princess]

Yes, here's this tall drink of chocolate milk with Kahlua just strolling through my life, and I could see myself curling up on his lap and letting him rock me to sleep.
Yep, yep.

*kisses you softly*

[demonsreiche]

thought you would like that description. *snugs you all up and rocks you to sleep again*

Re: *kisses you softly*

[bloody_princess]

*purrrrrrs*