Hi. I'm depressed and pathetic. I only write in this damn thing when I depressed or have something to 'chronicle'. Well then, lets see...whats happened. Too much actually, so i'm just going to say my current events. My dream of ever seeing The Lion King on Broadway is shattered to little tiny crumbs. My dad said he'd call, but he waited a month and ( Read more... )

Good god, i've been feeling downright horrible lately and have been covering it up with 'hyperness'. It fucking sucks. My problems are very pathetic and simple, but it is my life, so of course, they are going to seem bigger. One, I found out my cancer is growing, two, my 'group' is, in Kim's word, shit. I can hardly see or talk to Mary anymore, ( Read more... )

Well then...on thursday, I told Paul yes, and then that night I broke up with him. it felt way too weird, we are more friends then anything. but, for some reason, the whole thing irritated the shit out of me. Don't ask me why, it just did. So, to cheer myself up, I watched some of my favorite movies. The Phantom of The Opera, Star Wars, and The ( Read more... )

Oh my god, its been soo long since I wrote in this journal, its amazing how fast time flies. Or in my friend Cal's words 'You can't escape time, but time can escape you.' Anyways..soo much has happened. We took Shadow back to the cayers. Mr. Cayor, or old guy in cowboy boots, hit my dad and then got sued by the state or whatever..we lost. The old ( Read more... )

Well, a lot of crap has happened lately..We had to put Black Beauty down, i'll miss her. She was like part of the family, and the decision killed us all. But it was for the best, she was in constant pain and we hated seeing her like that. So, we did what we had to do. School's over, high-school next year. Oh, i can hardly contain my excitement..not ( Read more... )

Well, today I just feel unwanted yet loved..weird combination huh? Kyle asked me out again today, but I don't him no, again. I'm just not ready. I'm amazed he still likes me..We are going out to see a movie, maybe, friday. Sin City. I think it'll be fun. I read Bri's livejournal, which was a bad thing to do, because now i'm feeling unwanted. She ( Read more... )

This week has just been..screwed up. Completely screwed up, hardly a bit of happiness. Last Saturday night, Chris, Darrian, and Sean came over. That, was the only good thing of the week. I'd missed Chris, His voice, his jokes. It was nice to see him again, it kind of calmed me down a bit. I felt like nothing was going to go wrong that week. Wrong, ( Read more... )

Kyle finally told me. March 15th, a tuesday at about 8:18. He told me he didn't like me anymore, that we were too different. We didn't have that much in common. I'm kinda happy, yet kinda sad. I knew he couldn't like me forever, but now, It hurts. No one's ever liked me like Kyle did. And i know he'll end up going out with someone within' a week. ( Read more... )

My title is so true right now. Kyle likes me and he wants to go out with me, but I have this gut feeling that if I go out with him, its going to be a complete disaster and i've learned to trust something when I feel it. I know it may hurt him, but he's a player and he'll get another girl within' a week. Right? I still want to remain friends with ( Read more... )