Today I looked down at my scared arm and refelcted on myself.I havnt cut in a while, because Aaron asked me not too.But its so hard.Cutting has become a addiction....my relife from this shitty world I live in.I have become dependent on cutting and slicing away my problems..... :(

I think love is in the air.I have been dating this guy named Aaron for a few weeks.....I really like him....actaully love him.He is so sweet and he actaully cares about me.And I care about him alot too.I dont know its weird iv never loved someone like this before and to be honest im a little scared.Now that i have found someone like this im so ( Read more... )

well today I guess im just sad...and i dont really know why..im gust feeling so depressed so unimportant.A guy i know asked me out saturday night.His name is Aaron...i said yes beacause he is a really sweet guy.I like him alot I just dont want to be hurt again like every time b4....everytime I put trust in people they backstab and hurt me alot...i ( Read more... )

~My Beautiful Suicide ( Read more... )

I find myself no longer caring about things I once held so close.Things I once couldnt live without now i cant live with.Things I once understood I no longer can grasp.I used to see so clearly now I am so blind.How did I go from something so alive to something dead in my own unhappiness?What have I become,what will become of me? Will I be able to ( Read more... )

"How does it come to this?"I ask myself silently as I slide the blade across my skin.Harder and harder I push until the pain consumes my body like a tidle wave."A little more and it will all be ok." I say convincingly.I look down as the blood washes away my pain.The blade is my friend.The only thing that can make it okay again after facing another ( Read more... )