my mom is going to talk to my uncle steve who lives in st. louis to see if i can spend a month down there. honestly, i want to get a job and go to school down there as well. and i know if i'm down there zach will follow me as well. his friends are alright people, funny as hell, but he really needs to get away from them. bad influences. and aside ( Read more... )

man, i never realized how depressing valentines can be. this sucks. i can't stand being stranded at my house. y'know i haven't showered in two days, and for the last two days as well i've fallen asleep in my work shirt? two days of wearing the same clothes and never washing, only because i knew i wouldn't be doing anything. lo and behold, what i've ( Read more... )

i'm serious when i say i feel depressed here. 
i honestly want to get out of here and go for a walk.

there really is no reason for me to feel like this after the events tonight.
i had a good time and all. but i dunno.
i still feel like crap.

i feel horribly blah for some reason. blah. this sucks. i can't stand the snow and the coldness right now. and i can't stand tim hortons. it pisses me off that they tried calling me i think a total of 4 times today to try and get me to work on a day off that i scheduled for. fucking bitches. so my college class starts fairly soon. thank god.

so a ( Read more... )

i don't want to live a life where my days at work are devoted to buying elaborate things. i don't want to work for the sole purpose to propel myself up higher in the social ladder. i just want to live my life. i just want to write down my thoughts. and i just want to get by with what i need. honestly, i don't want anything extravegant, i just want ( Read more... )

who wants to start a commune with me? yeah, i could live alone in the forest, but i need people damnit. so who's in? we can grow crops and shit and make it on our own. i think it'd be worthwhile, and maybe we could change the world through example or something like that. i'm tired.

i want to leave this state in the worse way.
just move far away and start all over again.
hopefully, this can be accomplished within a few years.
because i seriously can't stand this fucking shit hole of a state.
this joint is depressing.

i don't want to say that i have nothing to say, because i do. but i don't know what i have to say. if that makes any sense. every time i drive home from work i always get these ideas and weird sentences that i think up from a lack of sleep, or from mind numbing exposure to fucking canadians. anyway, i get these ideas while driving home. ( Read more... )

Who wants to play house with me
Where I can go to my make believe job
For the purpose of supporting our lifestyle
And buying you elaborate things
In exchange I ask for your love
In spite of the fact that it’s imaginary
But I’ll love you all the same
To keep our private world turning

When the day sets on our fun and our moms call us in
I'll give you a fake ( Read more... )

alright, i can't deny it. i really do want to join the air force. regardless of how people feel. aside from my position on it, i suppose i will wait a year and go back to school full time, while trying to find another chance to get out of this god forsaken state. anywho, we'll see when a year rolls by. i don't know. i really do want to join, and it ( Read more... )