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[bloodyeva]

So, mom has 2-4 years left

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[goddessmikhail]

I am so sorry sweetheart. I know it is very hard to see anything beyond pain, confusion and anger right now and I know your heart is breaking. Life is such a fragile thing and can be gone in an instant-that is the true lesson which is so painful to learn. You have been given something a great many people don't have...and that is time-time to spend with her. I am so grateful I had just spoken with my mother the week she died (but we talked all the time for which I am eternally grateful) but believe me, there is always more to say when you know there will be no other phonecall or hug. It does not get easier, believe me, but be strong for her and don't waste one instant you have been given with her.

[bloodyeva]

Thanks. I know I should appreciate and be greatful for the time I have left...but all I can think is that it's not fair that I can't have my mother when so many other people get to have theirs. Especially people who don't even like their moms. :(
I love her so much. I guess it's good that I will get the chance to tell her that a lot...and I wont have to worry later that she didn't know.

[goddessmikhail]

I get sad alot when I see people who have horrific relationships with their parents yet their moms seem to live forever. Anger is a stage of acceptance and it will pass eventually though it still comes back with me on occassion.

[bloodyeva]

*sigh*..I don't even know what I'm supposed to be feeling right now. :(

[littlravn]

((hugs))

I'm sorry they didn't have better news.
Often they are wrong.
Hopefully the rest of her life is good and you can spend lots of time with her.

[bloodyeva]

Yeah I hope so too. She says she can hold out for at least 6 years she thinks. And there's always miracles.

And if anyone deserves one it's her.

[bloodyeva]

It's ok. I don't either. :(

[twisted_sky]

Someone died of cancer at that age? That's the same age as me. It's sad.

As for your mom, I'm sorry to hear that. My grandfather had a long battle with lung cancer. Had it been my father that was dying, I'd have a better idea of how you feel and know what to say.

[bloodyeva]

Yeah, my grandfather died of lung cancer too. But that was less tragic because he was old and caused it himself.

With this guy and my mother, neither of them had any control whatsoever over what happened. (Sorry, not trying to be negative, just pouting).

[netgecko]

*hugs* Not much to say, really, but at least you're not alone. Lots of people are here for you, including me.

[bloodyeva]

Thank you. :) I wouldn't know what to say either.