I can completely understand everything you are talking about right now. I've been through that and am going through it again. I think last night (friday night) was one of the worst i've had and yet still had a lot of fun. I'm not sure if that makes sense (leaving out a bit of details) but last night I saw my life in a way I really care not to see like again. I had fun that night, but then got scared and isolated when nobody understood what I was going through. But I do understand what you're going through and anything I can do, or if ya just want an outsiders ear....go for it. Hang in there as I will try too.
Re: Ashley......bloodymary86November 21 2004, 12:45:53 UTC
Thank you Jill. I knew that if anyone would really understand, it would be you. I feel like I can completely relate to the "friday night" thing you just said. That's what's kinda going on now, but I little more on the side. I honestly just don't know what to think about it anymore. I just honestly look at the mirror right now and have no idea who I am anymore.
If you read the comment I gave to lovelyregret below, it's basically the same that I wanted to say to you. For the most part... I'll try to talk to you about it soon, because I think you would really understand and I always respect an outsiders point of view because they're usually right. Even if the opinion hurts, it's just the way it is.
I'm sorry you're going through this again dear. I can't imagine going through this again. My heart most definitely goes out to you. Please hang in there as well. You've come through before and you will again. Again, thank you for your kind words, they mean a lot.
Firstly, it's kindof hard to hear these things from you. Of course, I don't understand all the implications in your entry because I haven't been around but... hey. If you're aware of your situation enough to be writing these things, I know you're gonna be alright. I'm sure this isn't what you want to hear, and it's probably everyone's first reaction, but please come talk to me if you think I can help. AIM = SameOldFears42.
Secondly. That was the most honest and interesting update I've read from you...pretty much ever. Thank you. You might have noticed that my journal is full of vague little nothings and very, well, SAFE subjects. I'm very guarded, and I'm always impressed with people who can just lay it bare.
Thank you for your words dear. Actually what you said was good to hear because I always value an outsiders opinion, especially yours. I'm very aware of what's going on but I'm so confused about what to do or think about it. I know that sounds odd because you would think that if what has been happening is bad or wrong that I would do something about it... but that's just it... I don't know if this has been all bad or good. I don't know if this is just the new me that I've been hiding in the closet for so many years or that my morals have gone to shit
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Love, Jill
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If you read the comment I gave to lovelyregret below, it's basically the same that I wanted to say to you. For the most part... I'll try to talk to you about it soon, because I think you would really understand and I always respect an outsiders point of view because they're usually right. Even if the opinion hurts, it's just the way it is.
I'm sorry you're going through this again dear. I can't imagine going through this again. My heart most definitely goes out to you. Please hang in there as well. You've come through before and you will again. Again, thank you for your kind words, they mean a lot.
Loves,
Ashley
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Firstly, it's kindof hard to hear these things from you. Of course, I don't understand all the implications in your entry because I haven't been around but... hey. If you're aware of your situation enough to be writing these things, I know you're gonna be alright. I'm sure this isn't what you want to hear, and it's probably everyone's first reaction, but please come talk to me if you think I can help. AIM = SameOldFears42.
Secondly. That was the most honest and interesting update I've read from you...pretty much ever. Thank you. You might have noticed that my journal is full of vague little nothings and very, well, SAFE subjects. I'm very guarded, and I'm always impressed with people who can just lay it bare.
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