Dirty Little Secret

[bloodyraine]

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously. Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love -- anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say

Comments

[thelonlyone92]

it wont let me post a comment anonymous.

[bloodyraine]

Thats odd. Leme fool with it for a bit....

[thelonlyone92]

blah

[bloodyraine]

There we go. it just had to be set to public instead... ;_; oh well. I love radom comments!

[thelonlyone92]

i dont like the person i am. my life is so fake. i lie to everyone faces.only certain people know the real me. i hid the true me b/c im scared most ppl wont like the real me. i havent truly been happy for quit sometime.i care more about others then my self.
thx for lettting me share :D

~i cnt figure out how to do it any. so im just posting it :D :D :D *blonde day*

[bloodyraine]

*hugs* Dearie, I'm always here if you need a set of eyes for a rant or to share. <3's

And being happy and being the real you are so last century anyway.

[thelonlyone92]

thx

and yea sure.whatever u say.

[anonymous]

I'm at college and I completely and utterly loathe my roommates. They're lazy and always complain about having too much work to do at eleven o'clock at night when they've done nothing but play the Sims or listen to the Grateful Dead from the moment they got back from classes up until that point. Then, of course, they bitch about not getting enough sleep because they were up until three a.m. doing homework and then they have to wake up for a seven thirty-five class. To top it off, the room looks like a garbage dump because their clothes, books, shoes and food are all over the place. I don't know how long it's going to be before I throw myself out the window, and I'm not lucky enough to be on the first floor...

[bloodyraine]

Thats not cool. People definatly suck. ;_; I say we plot to kill them all.

[anonymous]

I agree, but let me finish writing this story for the fcukpac challenge before we do any hardcore planning.

[bloodyraine]

YAY! I love stories ^_^ They make me all happy.

[anonymous]

I have feelings for someone who doesn't have the same ones for me... we have a casual relationship - I guess kind of like fuck buddies, only that we're really close friends as well.

I never thought I'd be the kind of person to do that - but to have him there, even just to make out/have sex with is better than not have anything at all and to be left completely by myself. He likes me, but doesn't love me. I said I was fine with just being casual, but now I'm not so sure. Our relationship dramas have gone on for so long that at least now, when everything has been "resolved" at least I don't have to think about it for a while... until he/I finds someone else.

This is such a fucking mess - I just feel like a fool, and that I'll only ever be second best/just someone who can't be loved by another. It hurts, but hey it's better than nothing... right?

[bloodyraine]

That sucks. I really don't envy your situation. Have you considered ever telling them how you feel? Or are you hoping that one day they'll spontaneously come to the same conclusion as you? Which is always possible, but theres also loads of completely negative paths too.... ^^;;

Another Dirty Little Secret

[timrhodes]

I thought you deserved to know the truth so I looked through lost_slasher's journal to see if there was any reference to who her sister was and found you. May I direct your attention to her latest post in the brutal_honesty community: http://www.livejournal.com/community/brutal_honesty/2245710.html

Please disregard if you are not the sister in question.

Re: Another Dirty Little Secret

[bloodyraine]

Thank you, I appreciate it, I really do. Yea, shes kind of a habitiual liar though. May I take the time to point out that shes actually a 14 year old high school freshman? Yea...

I keep trying to keep up on what shes doing, but for some reason she disregards all of my concern for her. I really am concerned about her, and this is always good to know, even though it hurts. I'm not even sure if shes actually refering to me, (seeing as I really dont drive her to her friends houses much) but I'm the only straight edge person she knows.

So once again. Thank you, so much.

Re: Another Dirty Little Secret

[timrhodes]

You are quite welcome. Perhaps she is merely seeking some sort of attention out of this. Good luck to you both.