[FanFic] White Lie (chapter 28)
Title: chapter28: My everything
Pairing: Yoosu, Yunjae, Kimin
Author: BloodyRose
Rating: PG-13 / NC-17
Length: 28/?
Genre: romance, Drama ( a little bit), comedy, cross dressing, happy ending
Warning/s: Yaoi, boyxboy
Summary: The glass clashed on the floor shattering to tiny pieces as he slammed it on the floor harshly, he closed his eyes and pulled his hair backward, he was angry, frustrated, and desperate. He could not believe this had happened just as he wanted to give the boy a chance for real, he could not take this feeling of lost in his heart, he could not help feel like dying knowing the boy was crying so hard because of him, all because of him.
The glass clashed on the floor shattering to tiny pieces as he slammed it on the floor harshly, he closed his eyes and pulled his hair backward, he was angry, frustrated, and desperate. He could not believe this had happened just as he wanted to give the boy a chance for real, he could not take this feeling of lost in his heart, he could not help feel like dying knowing the boy was crying so hard because of him, all because of him.
Dropping his body on the sofa he could not help but look around the place, remembering how just a few days ago he was in here with him, how he looked with amazement at everything and how he watched him happily
He wanted to vent, he wanted to yell for the entire world to hear him, to know how sorry he is, how he feels and how much he wanted the boy to understand, to forgive him and give him a chance no matter what, he must do something about it but what?
Looking at the space in front of him he began to think, he must plead, beg for forgiveness no matter how or for how long, he must make the boy forgive him; he must make the boy give him a second chance!
Determined on that he stood up and walked into his bedroom, dropping his body on the bed he took some pills and closed his eyes drifting to a restless sleep
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Mr. Park, his wife and son watched Yoochun all night laying on his bed still hugging the sheets he took out of the washing machine so tightly to him and sniffing them, he was getting pale again, he did not eat all yesterday and it was morning again now but he did not seem to notice, he did not seem to notice anything at all, he did not sleep all last night too, did not move an inch and everyone was so worried, they all kept watching him all night afraid he will collapse again any minute
'I will skip work today and stay here, Jung su you go to the office, we have a meeting today'
'No dad… I will stay… you should go…' leeteuk not taking his eyes off his brother whispered
Yoochun shifted in his bed a little and turned to look at the alarm, he saw it was seven o'clock already so he sat up and at once everyone rushed to him
'Honey lay down…' his mother began
'I'm going to work' Yoochun whispered in a cracked voice
'What?... chun this is insane you should…' began leeteuk
'I want to go… I want to see him… to make sure he is there…I…need to… please' pleaded Yoochun looking at his family
No one spoke, no one knew what to say, they just looked at him with worried, sad looks and did not speak, finally after a few minutes of silence Mr. Park was the one to break the silence:' alright, Jung su you will stick to him, no hitting on girls just make sure he is resting and fine'
Leeteuk nodded, he did not feel like hitting on girls anyway, what if the next girl he hit on will turn to be a cross dressing man too? The idea made him shiver
Standing up Yoochun held on his head, it was heavy and his world was spinning a little, never less he went to the bathroom to shower, Mr. Park went to make sure breakfast is ready while both men stayed behind to make sure Yoochun is safe and alright
Sitting to the dining table Yoochun did not touch anything, he just took a couple of pills for his migraine and that is it, he even took them on an empty stomach which made his family worry more but again they did not speak, he won't listen to them anyway and as the doctor said before they should not force him into anything he does not want
'Come, I will drive' leeteuk whispered patting Yoochun's shoulder, Yoochun nodded and stood up, again he felt unbalanced and about to fall but he kept on walking to leeteuk's car and sat down, he wanted to see Junsu fast, he wanted to make everything alright fast, how could he love someone this much? How could he be so weak without him? Everyone said love was a good thing; something that makes you happy and brings you happiness but right now all Yoochun was getting out of love was the pain
'Be strong little bro, or you won't get him back' whispered leeteuk as he started the car and drove away to the mall
Entering the mall Yoochun held on leeteuk's hand and stopped him from going farther:' let's stay in the café here' he whispered and slowly took some steps to the café right in front of 1st, he choose the table where he had the best view of the shop while he was hidden by the tinted glass that allowed him to see outside but made him unseen to the outside
Sighing leeteuk joined his brother and ordered a cup of coffee knowing this is going to be a long day of watching the boy
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Junsu and kibum walked into the shop, Junsu was feeling like if being watched all the time for some reason, but looking around and seeing no one he shrugged pushing the feeling to the back of his mind, both him and kibum were suffering from hangovers but they were feeling better or at least they felt better last night while drinking, they were tired of sleeping on the floor in the living room as they both drank till they passed out but still, they were determined to start anew today
'Hyung…' whispered kibum:' I will go get us some coffee'
Nodding his head Junsu smiled weakly and watched as kibum walked out of the shop, he did not enter the café where Yoochun was sitting but went to the café cart a few stores ahead and bought two coffees to go before coming back to the shop, as he and Junsu sat to drink their coffee a song started to play through the speakers, my everything, the soft melody and the singing, Junsu and kibum froze listening to the song, both with tears in their eyes again
Yoochun who was listening to the same song as it was the same one for the entire mall had tears in his eyes too, Junsu was his everything, he was ready to give up on everything for him to be back with him again, holding him in his arms and kissing him, hugging him and having him… Yoochun felt his heart sink at the memories
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As the song ended both kibum and Junsu had tears in their eyes even though they tried to hide it from each other not wanting to make each other worried so while sipping some coffee Junsu tried to wipe his tars away but being the clumsy him he ended up spilling the coffee on his shirt
'AAAHHH!!' Junsu moaned out in pain as the hot coffee made contact with his skin after soaking his shirt wet
'Hyung!' kibum rushed to Junsu's aid:' you must change that!'
'How? I don’t have another shirt!' frowned Junsu, the shirts in this store were too expensive for him to buy, one shirt coasted a month payment so he could not even think about buying one
'How about I go upstairs and get you a shirt, they have sales now?' offered kibum and nodding Junsu handed him his wallet and watched him rush out of the store leaving him behind the counter holding his shirt away from his skin and waiting
Soon kibum came back with a white shirt, Junsu rushed to change into it and walked out, the shirt was one size bigger than what he usually wears but still it looked so cute on him, the two thin long sleeves were almost covering all of Junsu's palms and he looked adorable in it
'Sorry hyung, I got the smallest size but this is all they had' bowed kibum a little
'It's alright bummie, thank you' smiled Junsu weakly
'Where is your shirt?' blinked kibum
'I left it on the shelf in the changing room' spoke Junsu pointing at the changing room to the right
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Seeing what happened and how Junsu pointed at the changing room Yoochun understood. He looked at his hyung and whispered:' hyung, please… I want his stained shirt, please~' begged Yoochun
Looking at his brother's eyes leeteuk just sighed and stood up mumbling to himself about how much he disliked this but still he walked into the shop and the two boys bowed a little, leeteuk noticed the frown on Junsu's face as he bowed
'I want to try a green shirt from the new collection' frowned leeteuk and bowing again kibum rushed to come back with the shirt
Taking the shirt leeteuk rushed into the changing room at the right and entered, looking around at the shelf he found the stained shirt and sighed, he hid it under his shirt and frowned, the shirt looked good anyway so holding it he walked out:' I will take it'
Bowing kibum went to the cashier and wrapped the shirt for leeteuk who rushed out of the shop and into the café, he sat back down and took the shirt from under his shirt throwing it at Yoochun who hugged the shirt at once sniffing it while a ghost of a smile appeared on his lips
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Junsu and kibum were sitting behind the counter, not talking nor anything but just sitting there quietly when a man wearing dark sunglasses and a cap entered the shop, he walked to kibum at once and stood in front of him
Widening his eyes realizing who this was kibum looked away, he did not want to face him, he did not want to look at him but yet he could not ditch his work, right?
'I want to talk to you' whispered changmin
'Sorry sir but I'm working right now' kibum responded coldly in a cracking voice without facing the boy
'But baby… please listen to me…' began changmin but kibum unable to take it just rushed to the changing room and locked the door leaving changmin outside knocking on the door and pleading with him
'Leave him alone, you had hurt him enough already!' hissed Junsu rushing to kibum's aid…