[FanFic] White Lie (chapter 32)
Title: chapter32: Afraid
Pairing: Yoosu, Yunjae, Kimin
Author: BloodyRose
Rating: PG-13 / NC-17
Length: 32/?
Genre: romance, Drama ( a little bit), comedy, cross dressing, happy ending
Warning/s: Yaoi, boyxboy
Summary: Kibum felt Changmin's lisp on his own, kissing and touching, licking and sucking on both his lips making him feel the pleasure and the burning need in him to touch back, to kiss back, to feel the model and his love
Kibum felt Changmin's lips on his own, kissing and touching, licking and sucking on both his lips making him feel the pleasure and the burning need in him to touch back, to kiss back, to feel the model and his love
'YAH! ARE YOU CRAZY!' leeteuk went back to yelling but again they were too busy to listen anyway, feeling Changmin's hand roaming all over his back and going lower
'YAH!!' leeteuk finally had it; he pushed kibum backward and frowned at them both
Panting changmin did not wait; he pushed leeteuk away pulling kibum closer to him again unable to control himself
Being slammed into Changmin's chest again kibum felt the oozing blood stain not only Changmin's shirt but his own too, wide eyes, afraid and startled kibum pulled away softly to face the frowning changmin
'You're…bleeding' kibum whispered softly
'I'm alright, everything is alright now… don't worry love' smiled changmin softly trying to pull kibum closer for another kiss but kibum shook his head and pulled backward worried about his lover
'I will call a paramedic from the ones outside' donghae stood up and slowly walked out of the store to renter with a young man who was holding onto a suitcase, rushing to changmin the paramedic removed the model's shirt and began to clean the wound, he stitched it back together before covering the wound with a bandage
'All done, lucky it was not deep, it did not reach any organs, take a rest and don't stress, you will be able to remove the stitches in a few weeks' the paramedic bowed and left
'He needs a new shirt and so do you' leeteuk he pointed at kibum who bowed a little still red in the face and way too shy to face anyone
'I will get them' spoke Junsu as he walked away
Junsu's words were like a bell ring to kibum, it was like a bell ringing and echoing in his head reminding him of reality, to the reality which in Junsu is suffering just as he did, even worse maybe taking on the guilt that he was suffering because of him, he can't just ignore it now
'Hyung…' kibum whispered and ran after Junsu at once to the other end of the shop
'Hyung… I… I will refuse, I won't accept him… I don't want you to…' began kibum tears filling his eyes again, each word he said was like a dagger in his heart but still he could not ignore Junsu, he was his family and hyung, he was his friend, he took him in when he needed a place away from his family, he gave him a home not a house, he cared for him and loved him, he could not stab him in the back like this
'Don't say that bummie, he had just proved how much he loves you so don't let him go because of me, I will be fine' smiled Junsu weakly handing kibum a shirt to change into and taking the other to changmin to wear
As he handed the shirt to changmin Junsu felt a soft, weak grip on his wrist, he knew whose grip it was at once, Yoochun's, Junsu shook his hand freeing it from Yoochun's grip and walked away still giving him his back
Seeing Junsu walk away Yoochun could not stop his tears, he could not hold the pain any longer, he was standing up but his knees felt so weak right now, felt like giving in any second, luckily donghae rushed to support him as he tried to close his eyes to prevent his tears from falling down
'Let's get you home…' whispered donghae and Yoochun shook his head no, no matter what he wanted to stay
'Yoochun! you…' donghae began but noticing that Yoochun's body dropped a few inches before he supported it
'YOOCHUN!'
Everyone ran to Yoochun, everyone but Junsu who was still giving him his back, he was crying, biting his lips not to make a sound, he knew Yoochun just collapsed, he wanted to run to him so badly but could not, his legs won't move, he was frozen!
'Donghae, we need to take him home! You go back to the fan meeting!' leeteuk yelled and pointed at changmin who frowned but nodded his head holding on kibum's hand tightly
Nodding donghae held on Yoochun tighter and spoke:' we will wait till the fan meeting starts again, the fans and the press will be busy watching him so we can sneak from behind them'
'Good plan, you! Get out there now!' leeteuk pointed at changmin who sighed, kissed kibum's lips softly and walked out of the shop
At once they could hear loud sounds and yells, they waited a few minutes till the yells and sounds vanished, the fans again were in lines waiting to get their photo books signed so opening the shop's door again and holding onto Yoochun together they carried or mre like dragged him to the lifts and entered
Watching as everyone left kibum rushed to Junsu and hugged him, at once Junsu began to sob in his arms
'Son, can you leave us a little?' a voice came from the door and looking they saw Mr. Park enter the shop, kibum frowned but bowed and walked out of the shop watching his boyfriend quietly not making a sound not wanting any attention on him
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Junsu tried to wipe away his tears as he tuned to face the elder man but the soft smile on the man's face only made him cry more and more as the man smiled at him gently and held on his hand rubbing it between his own calming him down
'Yoochun collapsed again, huh?' smiled Mr. Park bitterly
Junsu just nodded
'And you did not go to him?'
Junsu shook his head
'You're afraid' this was not a question, it was a fact that Junsu could not deny
Junsu did not respond
'You're afraid of the relation with him, that is why you did not forgive him even when your friend took his lover back, you took the chance to run away from him, from this feeling'
Junsu lowered his head wondering how could the man read him this good? Was he reading his mind?
'I can't read your thoughts' chuckled Mr. Park knowing what Junsu was thinking about
Junsu was startled
'I just know what you're going through, it's normal dear, to be afraid, scared of this new feeling, a feeling so strong to take control of you, to change your life, you're afraid to love someone so much that you allow them to control you, to decide your life for you, you're afraid to be hurt, to be left behind, cheated on, forgotten…right?'
Again Junsu just nodded, he took a few minutes to do it but he just nodded
'Yoochun is scared of that too you know' he smiled softly shocking Junsu:' he is scared that you will leave him behind, that you will stop loving him, that you will hurt him, he never was like that, he was always in control of everything, no one could decide anything for him, he would decide for himself even since he was a kid, yet now he allows you to decide, to control him and he is afraid, he always is, that you will just leave, vanish and leave him suffering… when he is not with you he won't eat, you saw him, he is weak, ill, he lost lots of weight, he does not care about anything… do you know he rushed to the washing machine to get the dirty sheets because they had your smell on them? Do you know he stole, or more likely sent Jung su to steal your stained shirt because it had your smell, because it touched your skin, do you know he came today knowing he will suffer, knowing he will feel pain like no other just to see you, just to be close to you? This feeling is new to him too; he can't help it more than you can…'
'I…' Junsu just sobbed and sniffed
'I'm not here to judge you nor to scold you, I just want to ask you a favor, enough hurting each other, you can't run from love, you will only suffer, both of you, you must surrender to love and allow it to control you, you won't lose yourself trust me, you will complete each other, fill in the holes, correct the bad things in each other, only together you will be complete'
Junsu sniffed more feeling a strong emotions wash over him
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Yunho finished drawing the new design and peeped to look, jaejoong was with him in the office holding a paper and a pen doodling something while laying on his belly on the couch. Grinning yunho left the paper and walked slowly to jaejoong from behind, quickly startling jaejoong he jumped on top of him hugging him and looking at his painting
Jaejoong jumped in the air when yunho hugged him, he was startled and shocked, turning to face yunho jaejoong blushed, the man was nothing but an angel to him those past days, all he wanted he got, he was with him all the time, he dressed him with his special made cloth, he spoiled him with love and gifts that jaejoong could not keep up with him, he felt like a hurricane swept him off the ground every time he saw the man walk to him, yunho was nothing less than perfection
Jaejoong even stopped being so wild, everyone could see he listened to yunho and behaved himself, still every time he wanted to complain about something he would just pout and give the man his puppy eyes and yunho will sigh and give in at once
Jaejoong felt a soft pair of lips on his own bringing him back to reality
'Thinking of me much?' chuckled yunho seeing the picture jaejoong was doodling, it was a man who was supposed to be him, yunho knew from the hair, and around him the entire page was filled with tiny hearts
Seeing the picture jaejoong blushed pink and wanted the ball it up and throw it but yunho pulled it away:' don't, I love it' he grinned taking the picture and walking behind his office where was this huge bored hanged on the wall with the designs he was working on pinned on it, taking a red pin yunho pinned the painting in the middle of the board and grinned:' perfect'
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Yoochun felt his hyung and donghae lay him back in bed, his eyes were closed, he had woken up a few minutes ago but did not open his eyes, he did not have the power to face them, to face anyone…
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ok the final vote results:
god like story: fourteen votes - winner
normal story: six votes
so i will write the greek god like story next and after it i will write the other one~