[FANFIC] Bamboo Blood (Chapter:5.4)
Title: Words to trust: Chapter 5.4
Pairing: Yoosu, Yunjae, Kimin
Author: BloodyRose
Length: 44/??
Genre: angst, romance, fluff, comedy, drama, smut, happy ending,
Warning/s: Yaoi, boyxboy
Summary: Yoochun's hand reached the hood of the face and looked
Yoochun's hand reached the hood of the face and looked, wide eyed and shocked he just stared at the figure in front of him. Now, he knew why the sketch he drew according to jaejoong's description was feeling wrong.
Feeling the movement and the tries to break free from his hold yoochun tightened his hold and sighed, he tried to reorganize his thoughts and finally spoke
'You're… but of course, how could be so stupid?' yoochun laughed at his own stupidity
The tried to break free once again, and once again he tightened his hold on the wrist he was holding hostage
'Let me go!'
'Oh so you speak, huh?' yoochun spat eyeing the female version of his lover, she was mid aged and still she looked so much like him, so much like his precious lover boy
'Let me go!' she repeated again looking around her, afraid of someone seeing her with yoochun by the look of things
'Not before you tell me everything!' yoochun ordered ' you're his mother; you're su's mother… Ree shi… it's you!' it wasn't a question, it was a statement
'I can’t believe it! You treated your son like a stranger, never sending him to school or telling him the truth, hiding him in the forest away from everyone… that's a crime!'
'He's safer like this… '
'From what?' yoochun wanted to yell, he could barely keep his tone calm. Looking into the woman's eyes he understood
'From whom?' he corrected his question
She didn't answer; she just looked at him and sighed
'Protect him from whom?' yoochun didn't mind yelling now; the mere thought of junsu in danger drove him insane!
She kept looking around, worried someone will see them
'No one is around, I laid some tricks around while I was searching, I would hear it if anyone came close' yoochun hissed, he indeed had laid some traps around the forest
'What do you know about junsu?' she asked softly
'What I believe is that you're Shin Ree, the miller's daughter who's supposedly dead but still alive, junsu's supposed grave had a dead puppy in it and not a human so you and junsu escaped and weren't killed by your father. Escaped to the forest, I suppose, probably thinking that because of all the myths about it being haunted and forbidden you'll be safe there with you baby'
He didn't know why he said that, he wasn't sure it was the truth. He just thought that it fits the situation they're in. she was a woman, junsu's master was his own mother. She had to be his mother; she was so like him… it had to be!
'My father couldn't kill me… he hesitated to kill me… he kept me prisoner in my own house…' she was crying now, shivering with fear, and yoochun could feel how sincere she was just by hearing the way her voice trembled as she spoke
'He kept you till you had your baby' yoochun nodded, he knew this far from the old man
'He didn't want him dead… he couldn't have him dead… he wanted to make sure before he kills him… he…needed to know if it was a boy or a girl before he decides… that's why he waited'
'And when he found it was a boy he decided to keep him' yoochun nodded, he remembered the mention of the crib and that it looked used lately
'He always wanted a boy, he couldn't kill him when he saw him… he said I was disposable but he wasn't… he was to keep him while kill me' she shivered some more
Yoochun frowned, how could a father kill his daughter and keep her son alive?
'My sisters took pity of me… they helped me escape that night while he was eating… they helped me escape out of the house and I ran here… I knew he wouldn't come and look for me here…' she sat down on the mud; yoochun did too and listened to her talk
'I lived here secretly; I ate weeds and drank water to survive… I sometimes came close to the village, listening to news and then was when I saw her… he had forbidden my mother and sisters out of the house… but she still went to see them… she, the one told him I was pregnant… she felt sorry for me so she kept my secret, she didn't tell anyone I was alive and hiding here. She went to my mother every day and came to me telling me the news about my baby…'
Yoochun listened to her… something was wrong in this story, something didn't fit… but he didn't ask, he just waited for her to tell him the truth, he didn't want to ask, yet
'I couldn't wait anymore… I wanted my baby with me and I didn't want him to live with a man like him… he was going to use him like he used me… he was going to…going to rape him like he raped me…' she answered the question she saw in yoochun's eyes and burst out crying. Yoochun looked at her, totally shocked
Her own father raped her? That would…why?
'He wanted a male son… he never got one and…and…he just began telling me how pretty I was… how I should be a good girl and obey him…how…how…I was to listen to him… and when…unnie got married it got… the night of the weeding…everyone was busy… he…he took me to the mill… no one was there…he…he…' she couldn't go on talking, just crying and shivering harshly
Yoochun understood now, the reason everyone was so shocked hearing the news about her being pregnant was because she was never alone to begin with, always surrounded by some family members, so how could she meet a guy and get pregnant?
But, of course it would make sense if her own father was the guy… if he own father was the sick jerk who destroyed her life
'She agreed to help me… she said she will bring him to me, mother was to help her… she was to add a herb to the food so everyone would sleep…so he would sleep…and…and she was to hand junsu to her to bring him to me…where he belongs… away from him…'
'But it didn't work out, did it?'
She shook her head:' when she reached the house they were dead…all killed…he was there… he was left there sleeping in his crib… hidden in the closet… mother seems to have added the herb to his milk too so he would sleep and not cry… that's why he escaped this brutal killing…he was hidden in the closet so no one would see him, no guest was to know of him…she took him and rushed to me telling me what happened'
'And you did nothing. You couldn't do anything when everyone knew you were dead, and if she said anything then people would accuse her of killing them…that's why she locked the door and waited for someone to find them, right?'
She nodded her head bitterly
'And I raised him here, secretly' she went on, her voice so weak and tired ' I raised my son, my brother, here secretly without anyone knowing… a few years passed and a boy came out of the blue… saying he's the father of my kid… they killed him for it, they killed him…' she shivered harsher than ever before
'They killed him when he was innocent, typical' yoochun hissed ' but why would he say that when he's not the father of your son?'
She shook her head not knowing
'What was his name?' yoochun had an idea about the name, yet he wanted to confirm it
'Lee Kyu Han shi' she whispered
'Lee shi' yoochun hissed ' junsu's doll…'
She nodded:' it was the only thing I could give him, the doll Ree shi…'
'Why not telling junsu everything? Why hiding everything from him?'
'He's too innocent… he's not going to understand… junsu… what should I tell him? That he's my son and my brother at the same time? That my own father raped me and that's why he's here? No, family could only hurt you… that's why I raised him like that… it was safer for him…'
'And then your sister came back… she heard you may be alive and searched for you, right?'
'She was so old now, the woman who brought junsu to me, she was about to die so she told her… she told her the secret and unnie began looking for me…unnie was so good to me, always… she helped me when I got into troubles as a young girl… I liked her best…'
'So you went to her?'
She nodded:' I told her everything, she swore to help me raise junsu…her…her husband was a nice man too… he left us gifts often by the mill, somewhere we knew no one would go to… every week he left us a package there… and every week I would go and collect it…' she smiled bitterly
'Why leave it there? Why didn't you go to their place to take it?'
'There kid was growing up, he began to understand things… if…if he saw me there…if he asked questions or told anyone…I couldn't even think of that possibility… so we decided that they would leave the stuff by the mill and I'll get them later when they leave…' she whispered, her voice sounded so tired already