[FANFIC] Masters (ch.19)
Title: With your head held high
Chapter: ch.19
Pairing: Yoosu, Yunjae, Kimin
Author: BloodyRose
Length: ??
Genre: angst, romance, fluff, comedy, drama, advanture, fantasy, smut, happy ending,
Warning/s: Yaoi, boyxboy
Summary: Yunho considered asking changmin what the hell this key thing was
Yunho considered asking changmin what the hell this key thing was, but then he decided otherwise, he was having a headache already and asking more meant knowing more, the more he knew the worse his headache became. So, for the sake of his poor head and brain he decided not to ask
As they moved to the attic they began working at once, cleaning the attic seemed to have become their top thing on their fun to do things list, as they kept finding weird and very old cloth and object in it. They spent some really good time laughing and joking about what this was and what could that had once been
Hours passed like that, they didn't stop for a break. They were having too much fun to stop anyway. Only kibum who got tired after a while of cleaning alone sat down at the side and rested, watching them with much dislike in his eyes
Kibum looked at the men around him and felt like his heart is being ripped out of his chest. Yunho and jaejoong were ever so sweet, helping each other and playing around with the old cloth and stuff they came across while cleaning, they made everyone smile and feel jealous of their love. Junsu was busy cleaning and talking to changmin, he seemed to be way too occupied in the cleaning progress to take care of him. Changmin, his master, was keeping an eye on everyone and cleaning, trying to find out who's the god that activated the key
He was just another slave, a stupid useless slave who could easily be replaced. In fact, he wondered why changmin hadn't replaced him still when there were plenty of other, younger, smarter and prettier slaves on the market, all whom would be proud to be called changmin's slave. Why keep him all those years?
He was getting depressed now; the more he thought about it the more he disliked it. Nothing made sense to him, nothing felt right. Why was he having those feelings out of the blue? Why was he demanding all of changmin's attention?
He really wanted to get out of there, have some fresh air and think things through. But, how could he and his master didn't give him permission to leave?
Sitting there sinking in his own ocean of sorrow and pain kibum didn't notice anything about him, nothing at all. The scene around him began to change, he could hear the sound of waves now, looking around at the darkness surrounding him all of a sudden he saw the gray sand, the pitch black sea and its black waves slowly reaching out to him, he was sitting on the sand hugging his knees to his chest and looking, everything was black and dark, everything was quiet and lonely, just like he was feeling right now, he felt like crying
Changmin was looking around, according to the way things were going it seemed that jaejoong is the one who activated the key, he had to make sure. He looked at kibum wanting to tell him to sit and rest now, that he had worked enough already. But, to his surprise he found kibum sitting there by himself looking all gloomy and sad
Changmin walked to his slave, wondering what caused the overly cheery, clumsy and childish slave to get so gloomy and depressed. He reached him and tried to touch him, but instead of laying a hand on his shoulder as he intended to do he paused halfway, his hand still in midair as he felt something strange, the boy was drawing too much of his powers, this was strange considering he was only sitting there, not casting any spells or anything
Frowning, changmin reached closer to kibum, laying the hand on his forehead instead and feeling it up, the boy wasn't having a fever, but something was the matter with him, he was as if somewhere else and not with them, he got worried about him
Wondering in what sort of trouble his clumsy slave managed to get himself in this time changmin tried to focus, he tried to locate the link between him and his slave, tried to focus on kibum's power and find out what was happening to him
Suddenly things around changmin changed, he was standing in the dark, on a gray looking sand, a darkness without any start or a moon surrounded him and only a sea was there, he could see the sea because it was even darker that the dark itself. There, on the sand was sitting kibum, hugging his knees to his chest and crying softly, his tears falling onto the gray sound glittering before vanishing into the grayness around
Walking to kibum changmin had already formed an idea of where he was, he looked around and frowned. Why was kibum feeling so lonely? Why was he hurting so much?
Sitting beside kibum on the sand changmin pulled him into his hands and hugged him tightly; he knew what was going on so he didn't panic. Still, he couldn't but wonder why kibum was thinking about him hugging him, why was he wanting him to do this to him?
Changmin hugged kibum to him tightly and patted his head softly, the things which were about to happen next he knew before they happened, he forced kibum to look at him by cupping his face with both hands and forcing him to look at him straight in the eyes, then he lent in slowly and captured his lips with his own, kissing him softly, slowly and gently
The kiss lasted for a second, a mere second, before it was over, he pulled away and looked at kibum in the eyes, the words got out of his lips for sure, but they weren't his own, they weren't anything he would usually say
'I know I treat you so badly kibum, I know I make you feel so lonely and left out, but you should know I care about you, I care about you more than anyone else. You're mine after all, right?'
Changmin saw how kibum nodded his head, blushing a little, he was sniffing now but he looked happier than before
He frowned. Why was kibum doing this? Did he really feel so left out that he wanted all of his attention, dreamt of having all the attention to himself? Was he really in love with him?
This fact sounded so strange to changmin, strange yet not somehow not so disgusting or ugly. He thought that somehow it was a natural reaction; after all he had had the boy for over a hundred years now, practically he was the one who raised him up. He was the one who taught him everything, and ever since the day he bought him he never left him alone, he never allowed him out of his sight, so it was only a natural reaction that the boy would fall in love with him, would depend on him so much and would ask for his entire attention, he should have foresaw it coming, actually.
He couldn't break the boy's heart, he knew it. He couldn't just reject him harshly and act as if it didn't happen, it would shatter the boy into pieces. He must be delicate with the way he deals with this; he must be gentle on the boy
Making up his mind changmin sighed, with an easy spell he broke through the spell kibum was caught up in, he made everything around them shatter as if broken mirrors, and now they were both standing in the middle of the nowhere, there was nothing around them, they were standing on nothing, yet, it wasn't dark, even without any source of light, it wasn't dark.
Kibum gasped, looking at changmin he widened his eyes and blushed like crazy, he could remember everything that just happened. He could recall the kiss perfectly, and changmin's confession, even though he didn't know it was his spell and not really changmin's words. He couldn't look at changmin in the eyes
'Enough sadness already, let's go back to everyone'
Kibum only nodded, blushing red as changmin reached to hold his hand, but somehow he felt light hearted, he felt happy about it
As kibum blinked he gave a start, they were back in the attic. He was sitting in the same spot where he was before and changmin was kneeling in front of him, his hand on his shoulder and looking at him in the eyes
Was it all a dream? Kibum wondered, feeling somehow down and sad
'Should we take a break and have some lunch?' changmin looked around at everyone
'Oh, I'll cook us something really fast' junsu nodded 'Kibum ah~ let's go'
'I'll help too' jaejoong smiled and the three of them walked to the kitchen, leaving the two men alone
Kibum had to chop the carrots, that was what junsu asked him to do, but as he was cutting his mind drifted back to what happened just before, to what happened with his master, and he couldn't but feel something strange, feel so light hearted and yet feel like if chains were holding him down in his spot
'Kibum ah~ what happened to you?' junsu's voice brought him to reality once again
'Oh, I was just…aahh…' kibum bit his lower lip; he took a deep breath and began telling them what just happened. He didn't know why he did it, maybe because he needed some advice, or maybe because the aura of the two gods was so soothing and comforting that it made him talk. But, no matter what it was, he found himself telling them everything
'I think you should confess' junsu frowned
Jaejoong nodded
'I mean, you should always go through your life with your head held high, now too, you should tell him with your head held high. Forget all about him being your master, he's just another man, just go to him and tell him I love you' junsu advised, waving the knife in his hand right and left absent mindedly as he spoke, both kibum and jaejoong took a step backward, away from him, afraid of the knife which he seemed to have forgotten he was holding
'I think junsu is right, you should tell him how you feel so you could be happy, or you will keep on suffering alone' jaejoong agreed
'Like you and yunho shi?' kibum asked innocently
Jaejoong blushed red, he had never told yunho he liked him, let alone tell him he loved him, but still, for the sake of the boy he nodded his head, trying not to think of his own advice, trying to ignore the feeling in his heart, at least for now
Kibum thought about what the two gods told him and nodded, maybe he should tell changmin about his feeling for him. Maybe he won't reject him after all. He will do it with his head held high.