I just had a 4 hour intense philisophical conversation with a guy I dont even know and it has left me feeling completely exhausted.

and somehow, it feels like a one night stand. Does that make sense to anyone else o.O it makes perfect sense to me. omg im so freakin tired...

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking ( Read more... )

She came out to visit him...they did it more than once. They did it in the bed that I slept on, they did it in the blanket that he brought out here that ive been sleeping with for the last 2 weeks, I was wondering why it smelled funny. He probabaly used my toys on her...he lied...he lied again...

So wow everything is changing. My heart wandered into places it shouldn't have been...I yanked it back and put a damn chain on it...it is down where it shall stay. Everything is so much better, everything will be so much better. I was so stupid. Thinking through time passed, trying to figure out how my heart wandered out and away. Trying to ( Read more... )

So what a week it has been! working 9 days straight, chris is here, just exhausting. I think ive needed to vent about somethings for a while so im just gonna do it here, I dont have many other people that are available just for some ventage ( Read more... )

no more dreams no more dreams....

im feeling a feeling that I cant explain and like...thats a first o.o its not associated with any other sort of blunt feeling like love or hate or anger its just like a ...an almost somehow sort of empty sort of...maybe confused...neh its not confused. cause im not confused...its like a ...unexplainable I guess. hmph. I dont think ive ever felt ( Read more... )

so this is my second week in the ER and ...omg ( Read more... )

fuuuuuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckkkk.

cant you just do it for me ( Read more... )