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[bloom_within]

I tried to write in this journal a few weeks ago. I had been watching the American Idol auditions. My mom came downstairs and told me that she wished Dad could die, because she was ready and he was ready. Later that night I tried to write that Mom wished Dad could die, but I couldn't get it to sound right. That will never sound right

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[im_marvelous]

Mags, you looked the same when you were little and sort of don't. I don't know how to explain it. lol. And of course, your hair still looks glorious. Honestly, I get such hair envy from your hair

[bloom_within]

You're right, 23 wasn't so bad. In fact, it was probably my best year to date. It just reminded me how young I am, that's all.

The moment was pretty surreal, more so because I was watching American Idol, and after she told me, I just kept watching. I didn't know what else to do.

I didn't end up applying to NYU. I just ran out of time, put my eggs in another basket. There don't seem to be many jobs for graduates in Museum Studies in the first place, so I tried to narrow it down to programs that would at least assist me, financially. Unfortunately, NYU wasn't one of those. When are you going to post pictures?

[im_marvelous]

I feel like 23 is my best year to date too. Last August I got the writing internship for The Blay Report and everything else is history but I share your sentiment about still feeling young at being 23. And that's why I'm excited to turn turn 24 because than I would have been in the city for at least 6 months with experience. I would feel more like a "New Yorker" by then. Lol

[peter]

dude, 29.. and my birthday is in 3 months!

realising that nobody ever grows up was the shaking point for me this year.

I'm the same person in my head that I was at 21, I just know more stuff.

The same thing is true of my father who's mid 60's and epitomises the words 'elderly business man', I've never met someone as serious and wise as he is and he's told me that he's the same person in his mind he was when he was younger.

Everyone's that twit in their heads regardless of age, it's just as you get older you get better at hiding the fact, but you're still the same person.

I'm telling you though, realising that I was never going to wake up one day and feel like an adult was like a freakin lightning bolt to the brain, nobody tells you that kind of thing when you're growing up.

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oh and p.s.

the god I look good thing, as shown in the picture, you've been beautiful your whole life, but the fact that you realise it made me smile.

[bloom_within]

I'm glad you wrote about being, dare I say it, "young at heart." Because nobody ever told me that, either. Having a kid doesn't change that feeling, I take it?

Thank you for the compliment, too.

[peter]

hah, having a kid just makes you panic for not feeling like an adult all the more. I think the trick might be in not letting the kid realise that.