Carry On
I think I know why I love LJ so much. I think it's because if I feel like shit, I know I can always come here.
My mom got fired today.
This is the worst possible news that has hit me since my dad decided to leave. And honestly, the last couple of months with this second job of hers has been so fantastic. Like...just knowing that she could support herself without my help was so wonderful. And then I got this news, and I just want to...my heart just kind of feels like it's being strangled by something and I can't really breathe.
I think this news has been so hard on me because god I just want to keep moving forward, but I can't. My family is like this ball and chain that I drag around. HOW THE HELL CAN I MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE IF I AM DRAGGING THEM AROUND WITH ME!?
INSERT RANDOM GURGLED SCREAMS OF ANGUISH ALONG WITH THRASHING HANDS
And these are days when I'm so fucking pissed off at my father. WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME HERE TO DEAL WITH ALL OF THIS ALONE!? FUCKING COWARD! And then you have the audacity to call me like nothing in the world is wrong. Pfffttt, you know if you do happen to call.
What are you going to forget my birthday again this year too?
JUST ALKJLASKJD ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHH!!!!
Alright. All better now.
My mom got fired today.
This is the worst possible news that has hit me since my dad decided to leave. And honestly, the last couple of months with this second job of hers has been so fantastic. Like...just knowing that she could support herself without my help was so wonderful. And then I got this news, and I just want to...my heart just kind of feels like it's being strangled by something and I can't really breathe.
I think this news has been so hard on me because god I just want to keep moving forward, but I can't. My family is like this ball and chain that I drag around. HOW THE HELL CAN I MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE IF I AM DRAGGING THEM AROUND WITH ME!?
INSERT RANDOM GURGLED SCREAMS OF ANGUISH ALONG WITH THRASHING HANDS
And these are days when I'm so fucking pissed off at my father. WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME HERE TO DEAL WITH ALL OF THIS ALONE!? FUCKING COWARD! And then you have the audacity to call me like nothing in the world is wrong. Pfffttt, you know if you do happen to call.
What are you going to forget my birthday again this year too?
JUST ALKJLASKJD ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHH!!!!
Alright. All better now.