where exactly are all the days going?
I'm very flighty with this thing of a journal of mine. Honestly, a lot has happened to me since the last time I posted. Some good. A lot bad. But I try hard to dwell in it too long nowadays. I like being happy and making other people happy and thinking too much on the bad will only give me an ulcer at best.
1. One of the best things is my boyfriend, ngl. In the past I know I've been ungrateful or whiny and wow...how rude of me really! Because this guy is basically my sun. He gives me strength when I think I don't have anything left. Like wow, what a guy. Buys me flowers for no reason and listens to me complain about things and tells me I'm beautiful everyday and honestly, I don't know many guys like that. He actually believes in me. And that alone throws me for a loop. Thank you boyfriend for being super incredible.
2. After being humiliated and rejected during the first round of internship applications...I FINALLY GOT AN NUTRITION INTERNSHIP. I wasn't as excited as I should have been when I got the news, but considering I'm panicking over a bunch of family issues at the moment, I think I was allowed to be that way. It's in Texas. I've been super fortunate this time around. I'm sure once I get there I won't be as frazzled, but I know one thing for sure I'll probably be a miserable crying mess the first couple of weeks I'm there...but just because I'll miss everyone terribly. I've never been this far away from family. It's so fucking scary and I haven't even left yet. :( But regardless of those minor details I am super excited. I AM GOING TO BE WORKING AT NASA FOR FOUR WEEKS I'M GONNA DO A BACK FLIP!
3. I've gotten a little closer with people recently (I mean...they're on the internet, but at the moment they at least know I exist, so that's all I care about tbh). It's so good to have supportive friends, regardless of how far they actually are. Is it pathetic that sometimes I get super emotional about them or talk about them like I just sat and chatted with them for a few hours at lunch? Friends are great. I'm like terrified of losing them though. I need to be less scared of skype and just put myself out there more, but like I have this constant fear of people just running away from me as soon as they get to know me better. And that's ridiculous...but it's a constant anxiety to me. UGH.
I started watching a bunch of things recently too: Brooklyn Nine Nine, Parks & Recreation, Modern Family and wow what freakin' great TV there. Rewatched West Side Story for the millionth time and that one never ever gets old. And it's nice to kind of unwind with these things because most nights I come home like totally upset and stuff. But then I just start and episode of one of these shows and feel the day kind of peel away. It's so nice. And wow do I hope Community and Teen Wolf are just as good when they start up again. I'm like super thrilled, but also terrified because the writers just don't sit well with me right now. I just really question their decisions...and ugh...we'll see. But still woefully obsessed I'm afraid. And hell I'm still obsessed with Young Justice (always and forever it may seem), but wow let's just go ahead and add Morning Glories to that obsession too.
What a roller coaster!! I haven't been this thrilled and shocked to pick a series up since Young Justice and it definitely has to do with the characters. Only 30+ issues and these kids are like my children. I've already lost a favorite (Zoeeeeeeeeeeee ;A;), but in the same breath have come to appreciate the remaining cast so much more. It's really weird, characters that I thought I wouldn't like have slowly crept up on me and I just...I don't know...they are just fantastic and I want to explore them and get into their heads and see what they do next. Irina, Fortunato, Vanessa...what fantastic stories so far. These three are on high alert for me. FUCKING FORTUNATO...watching him get his eyes poked out after everything that happened in the flashbacks for him...FUCKING JUST LEAVE ME HERE IN THIS ROOM TO DROWN IN MY OWN TEARS. UGH...so I can add them to my favorite cast of little shits too, which is great. Jade, Ike, Hunter, Akiko, Ian and Casey. Each super interesting and deep and fucked up. And I just really like that appeal. I like that they are messed up, but that they actually address it instead of making me think of how messed up all of this stuff will end up leaving them. Like these babies are going to have PTSD up the wazoo. IT ACTUALLY THRILLS ME not because I'm like a freak or anything...I just think it's so refreshing to see characters told in this way. I like seeing how humanity works itself out through other people because everyone is different. It's just super interesting to me. I don't know. I like all this psychological shit.
And don't ask me about the plot. I feel like I need to sit one day and just plow through the series again to pick up all the little things I've obviously missed. Hopefully after I finish my homework I'll get to it. *sigh* But honestly this is one of the most interesting things I've read. It too has it's problems, but I kind of forgive it because...wow really fantastic background and characters. It takes my breath away.
And I guess that's about it for now. I should be doing work. It's funny how when I have a million things do I actually remember that I have an LJ. Procrassssttiiinnnaaatttttiiioooonnnn.
1. One of the best things is my boyfriend, ngl. In the past I know I've been ungrateful or whiny and wow...how rude of me really! Because this guy is basically my sun. He gives me strength when I think I don't have anything left. Like wow, what a guy. Buys me flowers for no reason and listens to me complain about things and tells me I'm beautiful everyday and honestly, I don't know many guys like that. He actually believes in me. And that alone throws me for a loop. Thank you boyfriend for being super incredible.
2. After being humiliated and rejected during the first round of internship applications...I FINALLY GOT AN NUTRITION INTERNSHIP. I wasn't as excited as I should have been when I got the news, but considering I'm panicking over a bunch of family issues at the moment, I think I was allowed to be that way. It's in Texas. I've been super fortunate this time around. I'm sure once I get there I won't be as frazzled, but I know one thing for sure I'll probably be a miserable crying mess the first couple of weeks I'm there...but just because I'll miss everyone terribly. I've never been this far away from family. It's so fucking scary and I haven't even left yet. :( But regardless of those minor details I am super excited. I AM GOING TO BE WORKING AT NASA FOR FOUR WEEKS I'M GONNA DO A BACK FLIP!
3. I've gotten a little closer with people recently (I mean...they're on the internet, but at the moment they at least know I exist, so that's all I care about tbh). It's so good to have supportive friends, regardless of how far they actually are. Is it pathetic that sometimes I get super emotional about them or talk about them like I just sat and chatted with them for a few hours at lunch? Friends are great. I'm like terrified of losing them though. I need to be less scared of skype and just put myself out there more, but like I have this constant fear of people just running away from me as soon as they get to know me better. And that's ridiculous...but it's a constant anxiety to me. UGH.
I started watching a bunch of things recently too: Brooklyn Nine Nine, Parks & Recreation, Modern Family and wow what freakin' great TV there. Rewatched West Side Story for the millionth time and that one never ever gets old. And it's nice to kind of unwind with these things because most nights I come home like totally upset and stuff. But then I just start and episode of one of these shows and feel the day kind of peel away. It's so nice. And wow do I hope Community and Teen Wolf are just as good when they start up again. I'm like super thrilled, but also terrified because the writers just don't sit well with me right now. I just really question their decisions...and ugh...we'll see. But still woefully obsessed I'm afraid. And hell I'm still obsessed with Young Justice (always and forever it may seem), but wow let's just go ahead and add Morning Glories to that obsession too.
What a roller coaster!! I haven't been this thrilled and shocked to pick a series up since Young Justice and it definitely has to do with the characters. Only 30+ issues and these kids are like my children. I've already lost a favorite (Zoeeeeeeeeeeee ;A;), but in the same breath have come to appreciate the remaining cast so much more. It's really weird, characters that I thought I wouldn't like have slowly crept up on me and I just...I don't know...they are just fantastic and I want to explore them and get into their heads and see what they do next. Irina, Fortunato, Vanessa...what fantastic stories so far. These three are on high alert for me. FUCKING FORTUNATO...watching him get his eyes poked out after everything that happened in the flashbacks for him...FUCKING JUST LEAVE ME HERE IN THIS ROOM TO DROWN IN MY OWN TEARS. UGH...so I can add them to my favorite cast of little shits too, which is great. Jade, Ike, Hunter, Akiko, Ian and Casey. Each super interesting and deep and fucked up. And I just really like that appeal. I like that they are messed up, but that they actually address it instead of making me think of how messed up all of this stuff will end up leaving them. Like these babies are going to have PTSD up the wazoo. IT ACTUALLY THRILLS ME not because I'm like a freak or anything...I just think it's so refreshing to see characters told in this way. I like seeing how humanity works itself out through other people because everyone is different. It's just super interesting to me. I don't know. I like all this psychological shit.
And don't ask me about the plot. I feel like I need to sit one day and just plow through the series again to pick up all the little things I've obviously missed. Hopefully after I finish my homework I'll get to it. *sigh* But honestly this is one of the most interesting things I've read. It too has it's problems, but I kind of forgive it because...wow really fantastic background and characters. It takes my breath away.
And I guess that's about it for now. I should be doing work. It's funny how when I have a million things do I actually remember that I have an LJ. Procrassssttiiinnnaaatttttiiioooonnnn.