i know this is like my hundreth journal entry today but....

[bloudaze]

i cant stop crying and i dont know why. i feel all empty inside and i just want to smile. i know a lot of people think that im never sad or whatever bc im always "happy and joking" at school but im not. i mean im not saying that im never happy bc i am.its just weird. i just want to feel like people truly like me. that im someone that they enjoy

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[feelthesunshyne]

louisa lord!!!!!!!!
don't be sad, seriously it uscks what happened to us but we've gotten A LOT closer through it, and i am sooo happy for that. i gurantee you, you are one of the people that i really LIKE calling my friends, i can't tell you how much i love talking to you and omg you make me laugh my ass off. thank you for always being there for me and you KNOW i'm here for you. call me anytime :)

*kristen*

[bloudaze]

aww thanks i love you!! dont worry i will be calling you hahaha
<3 <3

[brii]

dont be silly :>
we all LOVE you and you know that.
no more crying.
max is a dick and just because it's not working out or whatever doesn't mean you can't ever find another guy who is even more wonderful than him. trust me. i have days where i think i'm gonna be a lonely person for the rest of my life but people just come up out fo nowhere. it's hard, i know.. but you'll be okay.
I TRULY LIKE YOU! otherwise i wouldn't be working at the same place as you just in hopes of working together even though it happens like once in a never :) SUNDAY MAN!
and you are seriously so funny and awesome and i think the hangage outage should happen more often... SMILEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[bloudaze]

awww thanks brianna, my tfm buddy. hahaha
i <3 you and your bday is soon!!!!

[bloudaze]

oh yeah i forgot:
thanks for giving me hope that i wont be alone the rest of my life <3

[dazlynds]

you know, miss louisa, i will always always always be your friend -- and a proud one, also. heck, i considered you my biffle (bffl) when you and maria didn't want to have anything to do with me! you're great, and i miss you. fun times will be had once you and i get to play. by the way, i can relate to how you feel more than you know.

lynds

[bloudaze]

aw lyndserssss (haha like the nickname) that made me feel happy!!! when can we hang out?!?! im basically off grounding....im sensing a lyndsey/teri/annalisa/louisa sleepover???

[_greenfairy]

what happened? i leave you alone for one second and i see you're upset. :( you shouldn't doubt what a great friend you are. you're always up for doing just about anything, you're a great listener (you know more about me than probably anyone), and you always seem to brighten everyone's day. i'm sooooooooooooooooo happy and proud to call you my friend because there's no one better than you to have! next time you feel like this...seriously don't hesitate to call me because i WANT to be there for you like you've been for me. xoxoxo!