fulfillment, once more, where art thou?

[blu05chick]

i cant exactly point it out. it's bothering me. i dont know what to do. sometimes i just want to get away in an ever-lasting fantasy. i am searching for, yet, another fulfillment. maybe i'm just being selfish. maybe God just wants me to wait for something else even better. i'm just so mixed up with all sort of emotions.

what's next in my life?

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Hey!

[na_na8705]

Hey girl! Hope all is well with you and that your Summer is going well!

Well hey I have been reading your journals, and it seems in all of them that your upset with something, a major issue with your family not excepting that your "into" God and want to go to church all the time and worship him, and I just want to give you some advice because I dont think its good that your always upset with something! I dont want to put it in a way that you only live once so be happy but just stop caring what people think of you and be yourself who cares what people say or their judgement on things, remember that you just brush them off, hard, yes because thats your family but sometimes you have to step up for yourself and just say "This is me and except it" try that hehe I might not be making alot of sense but its hard explaining on this, but be happy Laura enjoy life!

I love ya girl and your a great person!

~Naomi~

Re: Hey!

[blu05chick]

i see what you're saying, but i'm not always unhappy. i do stand up for myself, believe me, i do, but it's hard when they think i'm being disrespectful by going to church instead of spending time w/my family that came into town. i hate being called all of these names in such a bad way.
a lot of people thinki'm so perfect bc i'm into my faith

i'm not.

i guess ceratin people think that they arent good enough to go to church. i wish my mom wouldnt see it that way.

you're right. i should have fun in life, but i just need to have faith in them. i need to be a much better example for them.

thanks Naomi, I GOTTA LIVE LIFE UP!!!