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[blu33y3s83]

I don't know what's worse

pretending I'm okay when someone who doesn't know what happened says something that triggers me

or telling them the truth and having to forever feel different: changed: dirty: fragile.

Comments

[innana88]

Could you change how you see yourself and the situation? There is no law that mandates feeling dirty when you tell someone. Not that it is easy, but it is possible to say it and know that you've forever changed their lives by making them aware that this stuff really happens. That's a positive thing, no matter how well or badly they receive what you've told them. And trust me, I still tremble whenever I tell someone for the first time. I just don't throw up afterwards anymore. ;)

At first I was terrified to tell people, but the more I did it, the more comfortable I got and the more certain I was that he was the one needed to carry the shame for what he had done to me, not I . It ended up making me feel less fragile. Also, the more people I told the LESS different I felt because the more I said it, the more people admitted that it had happened to them too or someone close to them.

*big hug* I know what you mean. I was there for a long, long time. It doesn't have to stay like that. :) Hang in there.

[failaquen]

Well said.