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1. My mother died when i was 8yrs. old.
2. She died from cancer.
3. With that happening i grew very strong as a person.
4. I love to read.
5. I trust people way too easily.
6. I got caught stealing n almost went to jail.
7. I didn't makeout with anyone until i was in the 9th grade.
8. I've only had sex with 3 people.. not ten or twenty like everyone thinks.
9. I believe everyone when they tell me stuff.... thats the main reason i find myself it the situations i am often in.
10. I hate conflicting with others.
11. I wish the world was a better place.
12. I have an attention issue. I always want it, even if its from someone or somehwere it should'nt be.
13. My motto in life is "what doesn't kill you only mkes you stronger".. n I honeslty believe it.
14. Most of my friends i have are guys becasue most girls stabb you in the back & are fake
15. My best freind i had for like 3 or 4 years is one of the fakest people i know.
16. I have lived in 13 different houses and went to 6 or 7 differnt schools.
17. I"ve thought about committing suicide.
18. My father is an alcoholic n he left me n my sister when i was 9yrs old.
19. He flushed my moms ashes down the toilet. :(
20. Me and my aunt i live with fight often n i hate her for it.
21. I want to be a home interior decorator.
22. I care too much about what i look like, although i try n tell myself i don't
23. I want to be in a relationship but am too scared to get hurt.. bad karma.
24. Theres one guy that I would love to be with n would do anything for but hes an asshole.
25. There are too many people out there that no my business n that frightens me because i know eventually they will tell everyone EVERYTHING!
26. I have one or two people right now in my life that if I were to lose them i would probably kill myself
27. Senior year is here n it is going to go my so fast.
28. I have this strong feeling I am going to die at a very young age (23)
29. I judge people before i meet them n thats why most people thing me out to be a bitch.
30. My instincts are almost  ALWAYS right.
31. I have gew up alot n changed since my freshmen year.
32. I dont hold grudges... if they tell me they wont do it again i believe them.
33. I no longer care what people think of me. If they don't like me then fuck em'
34. I have never smoked anything in my life. & don't intend to.
35. I used to not care when others feelings got hurt as long as it wasn't myself.. now i pay more attnetion to others n less about me.
36. I regret many.. well  a few things i have done in the past n if I could take it back i would.
37. I live every day as if it were my last.
38. Today is my moms birthday. she is 43
39. I do whatever i want and dont give a fuck what other people have to say about it.
40. I cut.
41. I hate alot of things about meself.
42. Everyone thinks i lie.
43. I dont want to live in Michigan i plan on moving to New York.
44. I am somewhat of a drama queen.
45. I hate when people lie especially my friends...
46. I can bullshit my way out of many things. I've hhad alot of practice.
47. I havent had my natural hair color since about 8th grade.
48. I have had a crush on jesse mcclellan since 1st grade.
49. When i get older i will be divorced and remarried 7 times.
50. I always sit there and think that "if my mom were alive.... things would be alot doffernt".