I'm sleepy so I'm keeping this short -- I just dont understand how I can have something so good in my life one minute -- and then it falls apart the next. I mean, what is the deal there? First Joey -- in and out in less than a week -- and i really cared about him, alot. Then we have Joshua -- in and out in less than 3 days. I love him, and there ( Read more... )

Wow... well, Last night was the most amazing night of my life I do beleive. Joshua *not my ex* asked me out and well... here I am all smiles and giggles cuz I have a boyfriend again. He and I were up until 2:30 last night talking about random stuff and just being goofy. It was really nice to fall asleep knowing that there is still someone out there ( Read more... )

Well I am FINALLY feeling better *YES* no more sicky throat or upset stomach here haha-- I'm back to being me lol ;) Dawn came over last night after the coffee house and spent the night here, which was fun ( Read more... )

There is no-one left anymore. I just wanna cry and cry and never stop... I'm in Ohio, I have school tomorrrow and i literally have no way to get home. I called both my mother and grandma-- both of which basically said that they didnt have time for me and i would have to figure it out for myself. I mean, I'm 16... not 26, i dont have a car, i cant ( Read more... )

I've come to the conclusion that I'm done caring about things... I mean, why care... it's complelty pointless

I hurt so bad right now my heart feels like its being torn into pieces... lierally. I hate myself for loving him and I hate myself even more for letting myself fall for someone that I knew I could never have. This feeling is all too familiar... First with Nick, then with Mark, and now Dale... I fall for these people that I know i cant have and I ( Read more... )

When I first heard this song I kinda just by-passed it and didnt pay attention to the words but I really needed to hear the song, which i did and now i love it. the words fit me so perfectly, its scary. Its like God was trying to talk to me but through a song, mainly cuz of my adiction to music i think... he knew i would hear him that way... and i ( Read more... )

Friends... do u need them? I think I do but I couldnt tell you for sure... I mean, I have these friends and I love them but, again... I don't. I really dont wanna go through my senior year without any friends but... the superficial things i have now just arent cutting it. I feel so alone even though I'm constantly surrounded by people. I just wish ( Read more... )

well... you would think that my life would start to fall into shape by now... i mean I'm really trying to piece my life back together and to make my relationships with people alot better. But no, Dale has to come back in my life after I had literally just put him out... and now all those confusing thoughts and emotions that I was having are comming ( Read more... )

Have you ever wondered where we come from? I'm serious... like not the stork or any of that gay shit... im talking the real deal... God and that sorta thing. I met this guy on myspace and at first i thought he was gonna be just like all the other guys i've met on there... *hey babe i like your rack* and that sorta thing. well i imed him this ( Read more... )