Not a bad day

[blucola]

I stayed home sick because this cold is kicking my ass, but I did go out to get a few prescriptions. After, I got coffee at the Roastery. Might as well sit there and read, right? At home I'd be just as sick and with no one around. Although, jeez, some guy was sitting across from me, making pompous comments about the Buick Regal. And he kept saying

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[sidewinder]

But, other than the odd tug, now and then, I'm OK with it now. I wasn't for years, though. There's an unlying ache that pervades everything during those years that you try. Then when you give up, the bitterness and rage. At least for me.

Not much I can say but *hugs*, because I know all of this. Maybe haven't entirely given up yet, but trying to work on acceptance instead of making myself crazy with the hoping. I want to get to that point where I'm mostly ok with it; these days it's primarily being trapped in bitterness and rage part, though.

[blucola]

Curses to lj for not sending me an email you had replied! I just want to give you big hugs, because I know you know exactly how I feel. It's not an easy road we've been forced down and I wish family got that sometimes.