even the smallest, most fragile flower is a force of nature ( Read more... )

“this is not what you do when you love someone. someone who loves you would not do this to you ( Read more... )

You just can't say it in the same sentence like that: the guy I'm in love with and can't be with. One of those things isn't true. Because they can't both be true. because the guy you're talking about is in love with you, and wants to be with you. So what's the problem? I mean, you make it sound like I broke your heart. You keep getting it backwards ( Read more... )

Well, now she can't fuck with me anymore. I want to say that I hope it's killing her. That I hope she's suffering. But I don't really. I just wish she wasn't so terrible. I just wish I didn't ever love her so blindly. I wish she had been honest with herself, enough to be honest with me. just wish I could really feel this as freedom, rather than ( Read more... )

On Monday I went with some nomad people to the academy of natural sciences. And there were skeletons and fossils there, and some were giant prehistoric sea monsters, and I thought, "I should text Emelyne. She would love this." And then I got sad. Really truly sad. Finally. I guess this is how I mourn? Delayed ( Read more... )

It's always on your terms. Will it ever be on mine? Will it ever be on ours? Isn't this what you need to learn how to stop doing? I just want to shout at you, you're doing it again! You're making it worse. you're fucking with me! But I also just want to wait until Saturday, so that I can take you to this concert. I'm going to take you to this ( Read more... )

and she touched my arm above my elbow, and held it, while she asked me not to slice the next order of to-go pizzas that were coming out of the oven, it must have lasted less than three seconds. and that moment of contact, skin on skin, no matter that it was so brief, felt like ten thousand volts, two hundred decibels, a million lumens, all at once ( Read more... )

Well, I bought some things from the internet. Need some planters, and soil, which I think I can get from terracycle for cheap, if not free. Darshan keeps telling me they have tons of worm poop that I can have, so I'm gonna just drop by the warehouse and see about that. I also need some lights. I'm sure fluorescents and cfls will be fine, but maybe ( Read more... )

Yes, I've been there. I've had to protect myself. From people like you. You are the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I'm not saying that out of anger or pain, I'm not shouting, I'm whispering. This is a quiet truth: the worst thing that has happened to me is having my heart broken. No, nobody ever threatened my life, or violated my body in ( Read more... )

How can you not understand why I think the things that I think? Why are you surprised? All I know is what I witnessed. What else should I believe?

You did this to me.