The Middlenight

[blue_by_you]

I read that Octavia Butler discovered that the best time for her to write was between 3 a.m. and 4 a.m. because when she would come home in the evening she would be "too full of other people" to write.

Oh, how I relate to that.

I often feel too full of other people or too full of other people's expectations or plans. Like Ms. Butler, I love to

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[bleppo]

Oh, I relate to this so much. Up until a couple of years ago, I was going to bed around 3 in the afternoon, waking around midnight, working until 3, going for my walk and then working another few hours.

Then I asked my mom if I could go to the pool with her one day, and, after that, my life was no longer my own.

I’m miss my nights.

[the_wretching]

It used to be that I had to write to clear out the muck of all the other people and all the things. I needed to write to purge all that slime and reclaim my mind. Of course, that was writing for myself about myself and not doing something like writing a novel that ... well, that would have had to come later, after the clearing up.

Now I still have to do that sometimes, but it's easier in a morning when sleep mind has done a lot of the cataloguing already. Or maybe... maybe I've given up on demucking all together and just let myself be cleaned by entropy.