ugh! what a mess ( Read more... )

"well we're movin' on uuuup, to the eastside, to a deluxe apartment in the skyyyye"

well, on the second floor at least.

despite the bullshit my mother put me through, despite all the bullshit that's held up my sense of security and relief about this place, despite the fact i almost sold my guitars to afford it, we move in tomorrowthe net wont be ( Read more... )

okay, Life--i get it. you suck. now give me a fucking break or something.

hey--the best way to wake up: the sound of your neighbors ringing your doorbell at 7 am to tell you your trash is the only one on the block completely torn apart by hobos in the night.

fucking marvelous. i had to ask a guy for a trash bag because i'm out.

depression & stress + access to a very large bottle of alcohol = a saturday night i can barely remember. i didnt end up fucking anyone (this time), but ashley assures me i did make a total ass if myself. i'm trying not to beat myself up about it (its not like any of my friends have never had bad drinking nights). i just dont like not being able to ( Read more... )

god my family sucks ass--i can't believe i was even partly spawned from them.

....i really fucking miss my dad.

all this stress has now turn my stomach into a tilt-a-whirl. the kind at church carnivals, held together by chewing gum, twine and sheer obstinacy ( Read more... )

what in fucking fuck did i fucking do for august to hate me so goddamn much ( Read more... )

thank fucking christ the rain has come.

***addendum:

if any of you out there have never sat on a rooftop while a lightning storm passes directly overhead, i highly recommend it.

(just make sure you're not the tallest thing around the area)

A Few Vignettes of a Very Satisfying Fridayit's 6:54 and i tell my last customer that she's my last customer and i turn off my register's little beacon after my "have a good one" and take the t-shirts and random pants and hangers to the back of the front end to process them so i can be liberated. then my manager asks me to stay an extra 15 minutes ( Read more... )

long time without an update--july kinda just came and went, and when august started this lovely suckathon i'm currently the host of, i had no net access ( Read more... )