I'm scared that no one will ever love me. I know it sounds like emo b.s., but I really am afraid. I think the person I choose to be refuses to let anyone. It's weird, it never used to bother me, but as I get older it's hard not to get caught up in the fever.

I now have bruises all over my body. In various colours. That's what I get for visiting my ex.

I'm having a super fun summer vacation! ^_^ It's very busy though... But I want it even more busy!!! I hope everyone is having a fun summer.

I am going away for the weekend, so I won't be on for a while. Know that I love you all, even when I slap you (Tom), insult your sub-culture (Sorry Jared), etc ( Read more... )

Yay! School is over. I wrote my math and physics exams today. It's the first day of my last summer vacation. And it's going to be super funly. My only problem is that there's way too much I want to do. I've triple booked myself for one day. But it's a problem of happy joy. Had fun yesterday with Jayne/Jordana/Maggie/Tom. Twas funderful. I ( Read more... )

So my ex boyfriend from a long time ago called me. He's really fucked up, his last girlfriend got him on a bunch of drugs and he lost his job and ran off from home, and a whole bunch of stuff. He want's me to come see him, and I want to on the one hand because I'm worried about him, but I'm also thinking that he's going to draw me into his big ( Read more... )

I got a book entirely devoted to the cultivation and usage of legal drugs. It has lists of stimulants, depressants, narcotics, and hallucinogens. (I can't spell, so that could ALL be wrong)

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Shoot Pool... Not People

Draft Beer... Not People

Drop Acid... Not Bombs

Yesterday I went to the ex. So much fun! I love Alex and Mitch and Braeden. Also, despite it making me a traitor I didn't mind that John kid. So at one point I was standing in a circle with five tall fags standing around me, and here I am the short fat little dyke. I was the coin female character. It was funny. But seriously the best day I' ( Read more... )