Tymphs by Fiona Apple

[blue_sky_babe]

So why did I kiss him so hard, late last Friday night?
And keep on letting him change all my plans.
I'm either so sick in the head I need to be bled dry to quit
Or I just really used to love him.
I sure
Hope that's it

Comments

[nowhereman13733]

I would really like to learn more about this situation on a personal, one-to-one basis, instead of communicating about it ambiguously through livejournal. I know you've talked to a number of people about these-- please include me on that, because I'd like to know more about it and help you, but I feel that I can't unless I know more about what's going on.

I completely understand, though, if you'd rather not talk to me about it, but I am always here to help or listen if you need it.

[blue_sky_babe]

thanks alvin, its not that i don't want to include you in my stupidity talks, its just that usually it tuens into me fussing about the latest thing that i've done wrong. friday night was just a bad idea from every possible angle, and now im really upset with myself for even putting myself into the position that i was in. i value your input tremendously, so never think that i don't. its more of a fear that you won't consider me as good a friend or view me as highly as you did before we talked. ive worried about that with everyone, actually, and one by one the walls have come down. I guess Ive kept you out of the loop here lately just so that I could think one of my friends still doesn't think I'm horrible. I'm sorry if you ever feel excluded, that was never my intention.

[blue_sky_babe]

with that being said, if you still want to know, give me a call sometime and i'll tell you anything.

[nowhereman13733]

of all people, you definitely don't have to worry about me judging you ashley-- that's definitely something I'm quite proud about myself for overcoming, that is, the habit we've all fallen into of constructing judgments on others and viewing the world in generalizations, even among friends