30 Days of Truth. Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
So I was on Stumbleupon and I came across this little 30 day activity. I figure I hadn't written in so long and I have a lot going on in my life so I thought this might be good for me. So, here we go. Day 1: Something I hate about myself.
This one took me awhile, not because I couldn't think of anything, but because the one thing that jumped out in my head was something that even now I don't really like admitting to. But if I had to say (and I do)I'd say the one thing I truly hate about myself is my ability to be scared of EVERYTHING.
I should rephrase this. It's not that I have the ability as much as I already am. I don't know when that happened or why but somewhere during the last few years I went from someone who just didn't think about the dangers that maybe lurked around the corner to someone who can ONLY think of those things. I don't sleep at night because I'm an insomniac, but because I get nervous every time I hear a noise. I've missed out on some vacations because I cannot bring myself to fly. I get really shaky walking at night even if I'm with a group of people. The list goes on.
It's something I struggle with everyday, but I like to think that I'm working on it. Example, I'm getting on a plane next week to go to an audition in Detroit. And as much as I want to cancel that flight I am going to do it because it helps me to achieve a very important dream. I'd love to be that brave person I once was, but until that happens I will just have to hate that I'm not, but work to fix it.
This one took me awhile, not because I couldn't think of anything, but because the one thing that jumped out in my head was something that even now I don't really like admitting to. But if I had to say (and I do)I'd say the one thing I truly hate about myself is my ability to be scared of EVERYTHING.
I should rephrase this. It's not that I have the ability as much as I already am. I don't know when that happened or why but somewhere during the last few years I went from someone who just didn't think about the dangers that maybe lurked around the corner to someone who can ONLY think of those things. I don't sleep at night because I'm an insomniac, but because I get nervous every time I hear a noise. I've missed out on some vacations because I cannot bring myself to fly. I get really shaky walking at night even if I'm with a group of people. The list goes on.
It's something I struggle with everyday, but I like to think that I'm working on it. Example, I'm getting on a plane next week to go to an audition in Detroit. And as much as I want to cancel that flight I am going to do it because it helps me to achieve a very important dream. I'd love to be that brave person I once was, but until that happens I will just have to hate that I'm not, but work to fix it.