It's October! It's getting dark so early now, which is feeding my senioritis. None of the clocks that I look at match up, so I've experimentally learned that I need to leave the house when my kitchen clock says 8:10. By the time I get in my car, it's somhow 8:15 sometimes 8:16. I need to be in the parking lot by 8:24 to make it to the high rise ( Read more... )

I was so happy yesterday. I still am today, but I even asked myself why? I couldn't figure it out. Probably just the turbulent emotions of a 17-year-old girl. Whatevs ( Read more... )

Today was my first as a mentor! Armando is adorable. And I mean, hanging out with a 10 year old isn't something I would do otherwise. Right before I met him, the Middlestadt counselor told me "good luck" as if he would be difficult to talk to. He wasn't though; he was polite and there was a point when he got really excited about what he was talking ( Read more... )

It's the closest I get to dreaming while I'm awake!

Everything is going swimmingly. At least I'm bowling alone with others. The duck and the turtle were a reminder today. All my sudden crushes and random interests aren't bothering me that much... just making me feel empty occasionally. But I also feel that I'm reaching new territory. Two lives are colliding perhaps? I'm embracing the past and the ( Read more... )

And the pendulum swings.

I feel like doing something outdoorsy. Hiking or something. All this indoor activity will make you blue for sure.

Tommorow is my Daisy's birthday, and we're going to throw a grand celebration. I asked my Mom if we could get her a kitten, and the same answer/look over the years. And I told her I don't believe in allergies. And she told me not to be ridiculous. So instead of buying Daisy a baby cat, I think I'll get her a new water bowl. She has been drinking ( Read more... )

Do my parents argue for the sake of arguing? I think my Mom does, that she enjoys the struggle of power. But my Dad gave up his power a long time ago. So why are they fighting about toothpaste? I play diplomat, but for the most part I'm on my Dad's side. Maybe it's part of my Oedipus complex. Anyways, I gave up my toothpaste ( Read more... )

"The recognition did not lessen the reality... The past was nothing to her; offered no lesson which she was willing to heed. The future was a mystery she never attempted to penetrate. The present alone was significant; was hers, to torture her as it was doing then with the biting conviction that she had lost that which she had held ( Read more... )