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Sep 26, 2007 02:35

I feel like I'm constantly striving for empty satisfaction. I'm uncomfortable when things I do only benefit myself, and not others. I don't miss Spring Hill or summer camp much but I really miss being a camp counselor ( Read more... )

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melsbels September 27 2007, 03:53:49 UTC

I miss you! And its not pleasant when it feels like you're just treading water....but sometimes I guess you have to do that to build up any momentum and figure out why you're really doing things and what you want to do with them.

blueberrypear September 29 2007, 03:49:25 UTC

you're great. i know you're right...thanks. :)

sucha_tragedy September 29 2007, 00:44:29 UTC

i get the snobby, egotistical thing all the time.
i just don't ever know what to say or how to relate to people.

blueberrypear September 29 2007, 03:48:55 UTC

I know! When I first meet people I always try to smile and stuff but sometimes I just don't know what to say and then they end up thinking I'm a bitch or whatever...I don't get it!

BTW! I read your entry and my friend taped the first ANTM and I plan on watching it and looking for you. :) for sure!

sucha_tragedy September 29 2007, 15:51:02 UTC

hahaha yea.

its an hour instead of the usual 2, so you dont get to see my interview.
only like 5 or 6 bleeps of me.
but thanks. : ]

Better late than never... intrntlbella October 17 2007, 12:11:49 UTC

I'm sorry it took me a few weeks to see this entry but, as the subject says... Your entry is so philosophical, it almost makes me think your issues and concerns are surreal - I think this is a sign you should stick with journalism as your 2nd minor because you can write girl! butttt, I completely understand your concern about people's perceptions of you i get that "egotistic instead of quiet insecure" all the time.. you just have to be able to see past those who don't get to know the real you and embrace the real friends who give you a chance. also with losing touch with hs friends - do your best to make efforts to keep in touch with those you want to - but always remember it should be a 2way street! and try to come to terms with the circle of life and hold on to the fond memories of that time of your life if it happens to be over. there are tons of great things in your life now and we should always strive to focus more on the present - everyone is so obsessed with the past and future that we forget to appreciate the now; therefore ( ... )