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[bluebuckeye]

I am back to not sleeping well. The spell where Mike and I were getting along has ended, and it's even worse than before, if that is possible. I said I couldn't do it. That I was hurt too much to fight for us. And then there was drama, some of which was truly terrifying. And I damaged what little semblance of civility we had left. Whatever hope I

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[mountain_hiker]

No need to apologize. This is your space. :)

The hurt will pass eventually. Remember -- you have the choice of whether or not to be happy. I know that seems absurd given your current situation, but you really do. Choose to be happy. :)

[bluebuckeye]

Yeah but, as slinksgirl would say, I'm emoting all over the place. I know it can be annoying.

It doesn't seem absurd. Just unattainable. But I will try. :)

[slinksgirl]

First of all, you owe no apologies for being down. This is a huge sadness in your life. No one--NONE of us--want you to stop talking about it. You aren't burdening us with your sad. You are letting us share it with you for a little bit

[shweetnettie13]

I really don't have anything to say that can't be summed up by what Dani just said.

ilu, bb. I want so much for you to be happy and healed. I know it's going to take a long time and right now it feels like it's so far away. You are stronger and more resilient than you give yourself credit for. <3

[angelsdemise]

Don't think that you didn't try hard enough, because you did. Trying to work things out with him was more than enough, giving him a second chance after he had already hurt you so deeply was more than I think I could have ever done. You tried, and it's not your fault. There are two people involved in a relationship, and it won't work if only one person is trying to make it work, and that's not your fault. Not even close. He wasn't living up to his responsibility in the situation, but because he is a selfish childish man, he is blaming you.

Good for you for deleting those messages, now you just need to delete them from your brain too, because whatever he said to you is a lie. It's his own projection of his shortcomings. <3

[syncopatedlife]

Love and prayers, dear. Everyone said pretty much all eloquent thoughts I could imagine. Just know we're all rooting for ya and time will heal. <3