why am i such a sad person?
why don't i give myself credit?
why can't i answer this?
why can't i just get out of this?

I'm having a moment of weakness again. I miss him so much. It hurts right down in the pitt of my heart. Where it's the most painful. The spot that when open never stops. Continues to pour out. With nothing to catch. Washes out until everything is numb. The only reason it stops is because you're dry. And have no more to give. No more at

I had such a nightmare last night. If anyone knows me, most know I despise crows. I had a dream that crows were clucking me bloody. First I was bit in the finger until I was bleeding. Then more and more crows started showing up. It was like Alfred Hitchcock's Birds re-done. I was being pecked to death. I was awoken by the feeling of crocks ( Read more... )

Tra la la la la it's the weekend!

My heart hurts.

this is such bad timing. so emotional. crying by watching a tv commercial when seeing a shrimp cocktail. memories flooding back. i hate this feeling. it's so pathetic. i want this to be over. i can't deal with this right now. why have i done this to myself again. sometimes i just don't think i'll ever figure it out. what i'm put on this ( Read more... )

I had a dream that I took an hour off before work to get my hair did. I was going to chop off all my hair so it would be super short. I was way confident when I got there that I was going to cut it all off. But when I got in the chair I panicked. I started saying, maybe we should just trim it, or style it. Or just colour it. Then I thought ( Read more... )

why does it always seem worse than it is ( Read more... )

~Well based on your smile ( Read more... )

~your heart is my pinata ( Read more... )