Year 2006
So this is probably silly and/or stupid… but I thought I’d sit down and write out the major events, thoughts and changes that happened to me in 2006. It’s been quite the year.
First thought I have is I made it through another year. There were some strong suicide thoughts but not as strong as in the past. And I really kept the self-harm to a minimum; I only have two new scars.
The grandparents have not moved to NY yet… The second floor is all ready for them and every holiday that passed I wished they were here to celebrate with us. *sigh* I feel like by the time they get here, Kenzie will have moved out and I’ll be thinking of it myself or maybe even gone to a college away from home. They have already missed so much of my life… And it feels more and more like only one of them will be coming out here and I hate that.
I’m still working for the state and I still love it. My bosses are great and I’m going to try for a permanent position. Maggie left for a better job and it hurt so much… but I do still get to see her once and awhile. I’m getting much more confident in my abilities especially with the continued support from Jerry and Jason. And with HVCC pretty much done I need to make some decisions. Insurance and such… stuff I’ve put off for too long.
I met Tom at HVCC early in 2006. He’s definitely made quite the impact on my life. I never thought that I’d fall in love and get my heart broken. People say it happens when you aren’t looking for it. And I sure wasn’t looking. Lol But I’ve learned a lot about myself that I never thought I’d learn. A few things such as I love kissing (something I believed would be icky), I really enjoy waking up next to someone, and the main thing, that I can be myself with someone without fear.
It’s been an awakening experience. Being comfortable with Tom has allowed me to be more comfortable with other people and myself. I’m letting people at work see more of my goofy fun side and I’m finding that I can have conversations without such anxious feelings.
Although he was never my boyfriend and most of it was confusing, it’s been a wonderful experience. And I’m so very happy he’s still my friend, since most of my friends leave me behind. You’re supposed to get your heart broken so you can grow from it. I feel like I have. And now I’m looking for a potential boyfriend. I still feel silly but I’ve joined online dating sites and I have some friends who are looking to set me up with guys. Hehe But I’m not looking too hard… I’d just like to actually date since I’ve never done that. ^_^ Unfortunately I seem to mainly get interest from 30-40 year olds! LOL And the guys I like are spread across the country! *pout*
Tom was there for me when grandpa died. And he was there when I lost Loki… both were incredibly hard. Some people might find it strange that I would equate the death of my grandfather to the death of my guinea pig… but I held Loki as he died… I raised Loki… I loved Loki… I hardly knew my grandfather… and many memories are full of fear because he wasn’t the kindest of men. And I’ve always been able to connect with animals more than humans. *shrug*
Munchkin is still with us. She’s gotten frailer and meows louder but she’s our silly beautiful kitty. This Christmas will probably be her last though… and there’s no explaining how that makes me feel. She’s been with me my entire life! She’s like a sister… and I dread the day she won’t be here. So she’s spoiled and loved bunches everyday. :)
I’ve been dealing with a flareup for about 3 months now. I haven’t had one for over 3 years and I’m pissed that I let myself stress to the point of this! So now I need to get it under control cause I really don’t want to deal with doctors.
I’ve started smoking cigars. I’d say I have one a week. I used to only have one a year. O_o
McKenzie is no longer with Chris. That was unexpected and painful. But I feel it is going to be a wonderful thing for Kenz. More doors are open to her now. And she’s out of an abusive relationship with an unstable asshole. He is such a child too, we had his things to pick up and he dropped his friend Matt off to get them, then drove away! LOL What a coward. What the hell did he think I would do? Matt is so much more a man than Chris will ever be. I’m glad I got to at least say goodbye to Matt… he was a good friend and I’ll miss him. It’s been a challenge for the whole family I think because, of the three of us, none has had to breakup with a boyfriend and deal with the aftermath.
2006 was the last year of me working as Barn Supervisor at the Fair. I’m done! No more. 8 years is enough of that shit. It’s going to be weird buying a ticket to the Fair next year though. I’ll probably only go when Hair of the Dog is playing. Should be fun to be at the fair for entertainment purposes…
I turned 23 on the 23rd. That only happens once. *grin*
I got a new furry friend. Her name is Flute and she’s the most adorable little hamster. Every week she gets a bit bigger, I feed my little friends well. ^_^
My DVD and CD collections have increased to the point that I have no more room and need to figure out where to put them all!
A heron ate half of my pond fishies… It got my 2 goldfish that were over 13 years old! All the koi were safe and the next day moved inside. To say I was pissed would be an understatement.
Dad had back surgery. And his recovery has been incredible. We keep hearing how unusual it is that he’s gotten healed and active so soon. I think it’s cause mom and I kept him from doing stupid things like carrying heavy stuff or doing too much work outside. ;)
I saw many great concerts in 2006. Blue October, GWAR and Blue Man Group being the best ones. I also saw Nickelback with Lindy but I liked Three Days Grace and Hoobastank more. I also got to see Korn, DirEnGrey, FlyLeaf among others at SPAC which was memorable.
Still no nose ring or tattoos… but both have a pretty good chance of happening in 2007. ^_^
Sisters and I got the parents new furniture. It looks great in the living room and that 35+ year old couch is gone. And we got a loveseat that matches the new couch which is cool cause we’ve never had a loveseat before. To top it off the parents got a new tv from us as well.
I guess those new things finally encouraged mom and dad into looking into another vehicle. And now we have a new car! Mom and I have been driving by it for months and now it’s ours. Heehee It’s pretty blue too! I’ll get to be on time to work in 2007!! Yippie!
First thought I have is I made it through another year. There were some strong suicide thoughts but not as strong as in the past. And I really kept the self-harm to a minimum; I only have two new scars.
The grandparents have not moved to NY yet… The second floor is all ready for them and every holiday that passed I wished they were here to celebrate with us. *sigh* I feel like by the time they get here, Kenzie will have moved out and I’ll be thinking of it myself or maybe even gone to a college away from home. They have already missed so much of my life… And it feels more and more like only one of them will be coming out here and I hate that.
I’m still working for the state and I still love it. My bosses are great and I’m going to try for a permanent position. Maggie left for a better job and it hurt so much… but I do still get to see her once and awhile. I’m getting much more confident in my abilities especially with the continued support from Jerry and Jason. And with HVCC pretty much done I need to make some decisions. Insurance and such… stuff I’ve put off for too long.
I met Tom at HVCC early in 2006. He’s definitely made quite the impact on my life. I never thought that I’d fall in love and get my heart broken. People say it happens when you aren’t looking for it. And I sure wasn’t looking. Lol But I’ve learned a lot about myself that I never thought I’d learn. A few things such as I love kissing (something I believed would be icky), I really enjoy waking up next to someone, and the main thing, that I can be myself with someone without fear.
It’s been an awakening experience. Being comfortable with Tom has allowed me to be more comfortable with other people and myself. I’m letting people at work see more of my goofy fun side and I’m finding that I can have conversations without such anxious feelings.
Although he was never my boyfriend and most of it was confusing, it’s been a wonderful experience. And I’m so very happy he’s still my friend, since most of my friends leave me behind. You’re supposed to get your heart broken so you can grow from it. I feel like I have. And now I’m looking for a potential boyfriend. I still feel silly but I’ve joined online dating sites and I have some friends who are looking to set me up with guys. Hehe But I’m not looking too hard… I’d just like to actually date since I’ve never done that. ^_^ Unfortunately I seem to mainly get interest from 30-40 year olds! LOL And the guys I like are spread across the country! *pout*
Tom was there for me when grandpa died. And he was there when I lost Loki… both were incredibly hard. Some people might find it strange that I would equate the death of my grandfather to the death of my guinea pig… but I held Loki as he died… I raised Loki… I loved Loki… I hardly knew my grandfather… and many memories are full of fear because he wasn’t the kindest of men. And I’ve always been able to connect with animals more than humans. *shrug*
Munchkin is still with us. She’s gotten frailer and meows louder but she’s our silly beautiful kitty. This Christmas will probably be her last though… and there’s no explaining how that makes me feel. She’s been with me my entire life! She’s like a sister… and I dread the day she won’t be here. So she’s spoiled and loved bunches everyday. :)
I’ve been dealing with a flareup for about 3 months now. I haven’t had one for over 3 years and I’m pissed that I let myself stress to the point of this! So now I need to get it under control cause I really don’t want to deal with doctors.
I’ve started smoking cigars. I’d say I have one a week. I used to only have one a year. O_o
McKenzie is no longer with Chris. That was unexpected and painful. But I feel it is going to be a wonderful thing for Kenz. More doors are open to her now. And she’s out of an abusive relationship with an unstable asshole. He is such a child too, we had his things to pick up and he dropped his friend Matt off to get them, then drove away! LOL What a coward. What the hell did he think I would do? Matt is so much more a man than Chris will ever be. I’m glad I got to at least say goodbye to Matt… he was a good friend and I’ll miss him. It’s been a challenge for the whole family I think because, of the three of us, none has had to breakup with a boyfriend and deal with the aftermath.
2006 was the last year of me working as Barn Supervisor at the Fair. I’m done! No more. 8 years is enough of that shit. It’s going to be weird buying a ticket to the Fair next year though. I’ll probably only go when Hair of the Dog is playing. Should be fun to be at the fair for entertainment purposes…
I turned 23 on the 23rd. That only happens once. *grin*
I got a new furry friend. Her name is Flute and she’s the most adorable little hamster. Every week she gets a bit bigger, I feed my little friends well. ^_^
My DVD and CD collections have increased to the point that I have no more room and need to figure out where to put them all!
A heron ate half of my pond fishies… It got my 2 goldfish that were over 13 years old! All the koi were safe and the next day moved inside. To say I was pissed would be an understatement.
Dad had back surgery. And his recovery has been incredible. We keep hearing how unusual it is that he’s gotten healed and active so soon. I think it’s cause mom and I kept him from doing stupid things like carrying heavy stuff or doing too much work outside. ;)
I saw many great concerts in 2006. Blue October, GWAR and Blue Man Group being the best ones. I also saw Nickelback with Lindy but I liked Three Days Grace and Hoobastank more. I also got to see Korn, DirEnGrey, FlyLeaf among others at SPAC which was memorable.
Still no nose ring or tattoos… but both have a pretty good chance of happening in 2007. ^_^
Sisters and I got the parents new furniture. It looks great in the living room and that 35+ year old couch is gone. And we got a loveseat that matches the new couch which is cool cause we’ve never had a loveseat before. To top it off the parents got a new tv from us as well.
I guess those new things finally encouraged mom and dad into looking into another vehicle. And now we have a new car! Mom and I have been driving by it for months and now it’s ours. Heehee It’s pretty blue too! I’ll get to be on time to work in 2007!! Yippie!