I feel like I'm back in that place that's cold and desolate, but I'm not worried because I feel I belong here. I'm scared and I want to be back in that state of mind. I don't want to worry about my hurt feelings and what to do with them and why I feel that way. What could I have done differently and why did it happen. What went wrong and what could ( Read more... )

Shannon bought me the sage figure from RO. ::happy:: :D ( Read more... )

I've been really tired lately. All I can think of doing is sleeping after work. I need to exercise badly, but I need the motivation. I have, like, two weddings I need to be in + see Shannon. Must burn those calories, girls >:O ( Read more... )

( i am not being me )

I really do hate Walmart now. I have many cool stories to tell about how people treat me like I'm a little monkey when they come in, because obviously a cashier is not capable of standard thought-processes like a normal human. Being a cashier also means we dropped out of high school can't get ourselves one of those them-there "real jobs" that work ( Read more... )

why do I feel unwanted when I know i'm not. I'm so worthless. :/

Why is it that when I want things to go well, they don't? I don't know where the happiness I felt a week or two ago went, but I feel like it's gone. I feel like lots of things are fading and I can't get them before they disappear. I feel my happiness running out the window. I feel my love diminishing. All there is is anger and frustration coupled ( Read more... )

I am going to decorate my bathroom. I'm sure this thrills everyone in the general vicinity. Also, I'll probably clean m y room, too ( Read more... )

You know, I really am starting to think half the general population here is fucking mentally retarded. The people who come through my line are dumb. We have the younger couples who come through the line, looking like makeup-caked messiahs with bad attitudes. I feel like they 're going to stab me in the eye with their nail filers if I happen to ( Read more... )

Next week can't come any sooner. Or whenever it is I get paid because I forgot actually. I need to buy more clothes ( Read more... )