So I can't sleep. I won't be able to. I'm not at home...don't know if I'm going there or not. More yes than no. I left You a voicemail. I'm a complete idiot with myself. I'm going to worry myself to death. It's not what one may think, but it's important enough to me. I'd say it's partially my fault....but oh well. Maybe...maybe I can get over my ( Read more... )

I'm such a huge dork~! Why? Because I woke up rather early thinking I was sleeping next to You only to realize it was just my pillow ( Read more... )

I had this horrible thought when I woke up this morning. Surely it tisn't true. Surely this thought really isn't in someone elses head. I'd be quite sad if this does happen ( Read more... )

No solid foods since Sunday around 1. I think I'd like a salad because that's what I'm craving, but I know I won't eat it. Perhaps I'll have some soup. My insides are cramping so I guess that might mean I need some food substance in me or perhaps that's just part of what's wrong with me. Things hurt that shouldn't. I'm not even sure what organs do ( Read more... )

I don't return to work til Saturday. My white blood count is abnormally high which the doc says I must have some sort of infection or something. He thought it might be a kidney infection, but the test came back negative....soooo he put me on antibiotics and something for my nausea *joy* I got to see Nancy last night when I was picking up my Nausea ( Read more... )

Don't fake a smile to make me not worry.

Don't turn away for fear I might see your expression.

It only makes the situation worse.

It makes me feel inferior.

Just try to open up a little.

late late late!

Notes to self: ***It's not a such a smart thing to hit a window & break it in order to get into your room because you're angry. ***Do tell mother not to put glass covers over the windows again. ***Do remember that what you've hoped for really never will come true. ***Happiness is an illusion of the weak as I'm told. ***Waking people up is a bad ( Read more... )

You know what I want right about now? A milkshake. But not just any milkshake, a vanilla milkshake. Mmmmmmm.....

Party!!!

I would have gone to church with You. I tried to call You back but you didn't answer =( Too late now I reckon. I'm playing at Lyon for a while taking pictures and what not. Yay! ^^

I'm also a tard because I forgot to set my watch back so it was an hour fast. I'm so fusking stupid! *sighs*