I think I might start writing in here again more regularly .... I feel like I need it ... if for no other reason than to decompress from the day ... I'm thinking of getting a second job, but I think I'll wait until classes and the utter hell that comes with what I did to myself next semester starts ... morning classes, work for 5-6 hours and then a ( Read more... )

so I took that much needed break .... hibernated for a couple days ... finished The Da Vinci Code ... and just spent some alone time .... I needed it ... I feel ... centered somehow .... I sick of being judged for my actions and the way I live my life .... the way my life is right now isn't the ideal situations I know ... but honestly I'm making ( Read more... )

I feel like going into hibernation again .... I'm just so worn out and tired .... yes I've been cranky/on edge lately ... wouldn't you be too if these things were happening to you??? ... With everything else that's going on in my life right now I just don't have the energy to listen to the lies/half truths/ and just plain bullshit you boys keep ( Read more... )

so .... life is very good right now .... I got the keys to the apartment Friday and have been painting/cleaning/moving since then .... I'm thinking eventually a Party when me and Meg are all moved in .... but we'll see .... I am probably in the ODDEST situations EVER in regards to boys .... but whatever ... I don't want a boyfriend right now, my ( Read more... )

I find it odd that on today of all days that I've had one of my best days in a while ..... starting at 4am you'd think it would have sucked ... but nope ... a WONDERFUL way to wake up :) then just a lovely time until my class at 8:30 .... then work, which was fun despite it being ya know .... work .... lol ... then I finally succeeded on my ( Read more... )

I feel old .... not in a usual sense tho .... I mean only that I feel much too old to be putting up with certain things in my life ... I spent 15 years being told to "just don't say anything" when in a confrontation, and spent the next 5 trying to learn how to stand up for myself without being a bitch and without letting people walk all over me ( Read more... )

I'm giddy .... and I like it ..... 9 days and counting! goodness I can't wait! *squeals*

I have this immense need to write ... no it's more than that ... I want to write and wander ... too much of my thoughts are being held in ... I know the reason for it ... I lost my best friend, my rock, my sounding board ... and I have no control over whether or not they come back .... so I'm dealing I guess ... it's hard ... especially when you go ( Read more... )

it's odd the way things work .... do I believe in fate? yeah ... did I before? for the most part ... did I ask for a clue on what path to take right now? maybe .... but instead of subtle little "signs" I consider this last one a giant kick in the ass .... in the opposite direction of you .... I'm starting to wonder just how many times fate is going ( Read more... )

so .... apparently people can't keep their mouths shut .... beyond being completely hurt by the fact that people, that I considered friends, know so very little about me, are giving other people the impression that I am a horrible person, and are saying shit behind my back ... beyond that, I'm pissed .... and I'm sick of it ... I'm sick of being ( Read more... )