i'm back. i'll try to ease back into this, see if i remember how it works. how come i only feel compelled to fill this thing out when I'm miserable?

i realy dont remember when my last entry was and i totally forgot how to type on a laptop ( Read more... )

its my first hannukah. its my last christmas. i feel like so much stuff is either coming to head or fading away for real. everything is so for real right now. my dream world is ending and im scared out of my mind ( Read more... )

with yom kippur coming up i have been thinking a lot about forgiveness. im not even sure what it is. every time i try to ask brent to forgive me i change my mind or do something bitchy so that he wont feel compelled to. i rarely let people apologize to me except for the most vagrant of transgrievences. i guess i should seek forgivness from my ( Read more... )

i think i've been watching too much tv

(i am basing this on the smothering depression i have been feeling the past week...)

so i set up a paypal account on ebay. i dont know why maybe its part of my quest to get a gameboy. i dont know why but i have been DYING to play advanced wars. i should have taken that one from lost and found at work when i had the chance ( Read more... )

well i got offered another position at the bookstore. they want me to be a lead in a zone. it would be a lateral move, and it does seem exciting (working with wilma every day!) and i wouldn't be stuck at cashwrap! i have some time to think about it because courtney isn't leaving for two weeks. maybe i'll get more weekends off, too. i can only hope

i just woke up having the worst asmtha attack i've had in months. now i have heartburn

i miss advanced wars

i miss my game boy ( i guess it was not really ever mine to begin with)

i miss tetris

i keep throwing it all away anyway.

it hasn't happened yet...

we won pub quiz two weeks in a row! i got the budweiser shirt (cuz i drink beer, not). anyway, its exciting for us and probably no one else cares. cant wait to get my rzr phone so i can share pix of drunk people

i had a customer today buying books for her husband. it was kind of funny she was so excited for him cuz he was testing for his pilots license today. so while i was wrapping these books (like seven of them all on flying) she was telling me that they had been married for 35 years and they were still madly in love. she said it was sad that so many ( Read more... )