Those old nightmares seem to be coming back again. I havent gotten any real sleep in a couple of days. I find myself slipping in and out of consciousness while just sitting down. When I actually want to lay downn and go to sleep I'm always abruptly awakened, with my very soul shook. I hpe it passes soon, I miss sleep.

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with the expansion of my game now live, I haven't spent much time in the real world. Its nice sometimes to immerse myself in it but, I do also miss real life. There isn't really much of it for me to live right now though. I've started saving up my money, all the money I had been spending on drugs for a local escape is now going to one more ( Read more... )

1.How old will you be in five years ( Read more... )

etching out a place in this world is tough. when you never know the real purpose of why you're here just being "here" is a challenge. Life has existed on this planet for billions of years ever so often it is erased and it starts over again. To the best of humankind's knowledge there has never existed a creature on this planet such as us. Relative ( Read more... )

Someones birthday is comming up soon. I've always remembered it but never tell her. She has always remembered mine. I don't see why she still does but this year I'm going to give her something really special. She has always been very special to me even though we've had our ups and downs. I think that its time that I made her feel that way.

An empty bed is a lot harder to sleep in when you know you never get what you really want for Christmas.

Sometimes I worry about people I haven't talked to in a long time. Now that everyone is out on their own they're starting to go through the same thing that happened to me. Too much freedom is a breeding ground for addiction and abuse. an old friend of mine is falling deeper into a heroin addiction I worry about him but I also have to keep in mind ( Read more... )

I did not end up going out with Sarah last night. She said she had a prior engagement with her friends that she forgot about. I told her, "some other time" she said, "I'll call you later." I was a bit upset as I had looked forward to seeing her. I had gotten my hopes up as I always do it should be no surprise that I was let down. It should but it ( Read more... )

I met a girl tonight named Sarah. I was at Wal-mart with Kerry and Matt. We were looking around and PS3 crap and I noticed this girl in the music section and I thought she was cute so I stumbled around clumsily trying to work up the gall to talk to her. I started reading magazines after I lost Kerry and Matt. She walked up to me and introduced ( Read more... )