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Other characters played at Passing: Cordelia
Character name: Elle Bishop
Character fandom: Heroes
Version: V2+
Canon point: Post-her death
Importing development from old game? Yes, from bravenewworldrp.
Background: http://heroeswiki.com/Elle
Changes from canon, if AU:
-The apocalypse messes with the time space continuum and poof Elle is alive.
-Elle met Dean Winchester on New Years and slept with him.
-They continued sleeping together because sex is awesome. And then feelings happen and they're retarded. So it becomes exclusive
-Claire teaches Elle how to bake an apple pie.
-Sylar begs for Elle back, Elle rejects him. She gets pissed off Dean doesn't want to fight for her.
-Elle kisses Zebra!Claire while they go shopping because lesbians totally get free stuff.
-Claire lends Elle one of her cheerleading outfits and Dean freaks out about it. No sexy times are had.
-Buffy takes Elle vampire hunting. It's awesome to watch vampires explode with electricity.
-Elle makes Dean a dinner for valentine's day. It's not great but the thought counts, right? And then more sex happened.
-Elle visits Zebra!Claire and gets stranded in South Dakota.
-Sylar picks her up and they fly back together. Elle gets super drunk. Did you know unicorns are sexual deviants.
-Dean cheats on her, so she kills him. That's totally reasonable right?!
-Ruby takes her out to kill demons to cheer herself up. And then she gets possessed. Whoops.
-Another Dean and Sam come and get the demon out of her.
-PTSD tme. Having a demon stuck in you does not help.
-Sylar swipes her sleep meds from the hospital because he's a bro.
-Brooke teaches her how to play pool. Brooke is also a bro.
-Dolphin!Claire threw Elle the best birthday party ever.
-Ruby and Elle played barbies. It was awesome. They are the best adults.
-She joins the Company again because she has no idea what to do with herself.
-She gets sad at Peter and Sylar's gay buttsex and wishes she hadn't rejected him. Sucks to be her.
-Sylar takes her to six flags and she gets to go on her first rollercoaster!!!!! YAY.
-Elle gets assigned to be Demon!Dean's partner at the Company and they have to go into the sewers to fight a waterkensis guy. Oh, and Sylar bought her a haz mat suit. The suit rips
-Some racist asshole denies Elle her slush-o fix.
-The Gentlemen come and make everyone in New York silent. Elle gets drunk in silence.
-Elle tries to make Dolphin!Claire a birthday cake and it sucks. Baking is hard work.
-Plagues also happened, and they sucked.
-The mutant registering stuff gets even worse
-The apocalypse happens, and t sucks.
-Everyone leaves. Sylar, Brooke, everyone. Elle grows more bitter.
-Elle is kidnapped by the government where Mohinder gives her the "cure" for her power.
-Her power is still gone for the moment, but should be resurfacing soon.
Personality:
It’s stated canonly that she was diagnosed as a sociopath but from the first introduction to her in Fight or Flight (2x05) we see that this is simply untrue. Yes, she gets frustrated with Ricky for not giving her in the information about Peter and kills him with what seems like no remorse, but when we see her on the phone being reprimanded, we can tell it gets to her. It’s revealed that the person she is talking to her father, and as soon as he tells her to come home, she does. This sets up their dynamic as we see it later quiet perfectly.
As the series shows more of her, it becomes clear that she’s desperate for her father’s approval. She gets shaken by the idea of him hurting her (when Noah talks about her memory modification in Cautionary Tales) so clearly she’s not a sociopath. Sociopaths don’t feel remorse or fear or the need of approval. They don’t care. But Elle does.
More than anything, in a lot of ways she’s just a giant spoiled child. She throws fits when she doesn’t get her way because she’s incredibly emotionally stunted. She does the things she does because it’s all she’s known how to be. She was trained from a young age that she needed to be a cold-hearted company girl. She’s tried to force herself into that role but the shoe never fit quite right. She’s petulant, and doesn’t know how to tell right or wrong because she was never taught how to. She will kill someone for doing something like lie to her because she literally doesn’t understand it’s wrong.
She’s also a huge flirt, but again, it’s almost in a childlike manner. For all we see her flirting with Peter and Mohinder, we see her almost surprised when Peter kissed her, almost like she had never been kissed before. Or if she had, it wasn’t often.. It seems pretty clear to me that in her interactions with men in both season 2 and season 3 she doesn’t have much actual experience. It’s just another part of her act, another show she’s putting on because she doesn’t want people to see what she’s like inside.
She builds these delusions about her interactions with people, and she buys into them well. She truly believes her father really loves her and believes in her even when he proves time and time again that he really just sees her as a tool, a means to an end. She honestly believed Peter really liked her, and was upset to find out he used her to escape.
When those said delusions are broken, she has a hard time coping with it. She usually responds in angry backlashes, because she doesn’t know how to respond, like when she chased after Peter and Adam. We especially see a more vulnerable side to her when Noah reveals her father experimented on her and wiped her memories. She searches her father’s office and computer, trying to find any files on herself, to find the truth. They’re all missing. It confirms her fear, and yet when she sees a chance to please her father (by capturing Sylar) she seizes it because no matter what, she wants his love and approval. That’s vital to her very existence. She doesn’t know how to be Elle if she’s not an agent or trying to please Daddy, so much so that she’s willing to let go of her search for the truth to keep up this delusion.
Now, for a lot of people, Elle’s drastic change in behavior in Season 3 was seen as completely OOC. I don’t fully agree.
The Elle we saw in season two was hard and fierce, but by the end of the season we saw more and more cracks into that façade. Season 3 starts off with her father dying, her powers turning on her, and her getting fired from the only job and life she has ever known, a life she has given up everything for. It’s no wonder that she finally shatters.
The first time we see her after her dismissal at Primatech she’s at the Bennet house, where she had broken in looking for Noah. She is a complete wreck. She can’t control her powers anymore, and if you read the comics leading up to this episode, it’s highly implied that the cause of this is psychosomatic as opposed to something being physically wrong with her like she and Claire assume.
The power malfunction is a large manifestation of her guilt and mixed feelings over her father’s death. Her father was cruel, and did unthinkable things to her (that she can’t remember) but he was still her father. She doesn’t know how to function without him because she’s relied on him and the Company to tell her what to do for her whole life. The idea of actual freedom terrifies her (as we see in the episode Villains, which I’ll talk about more later) and that’s probably why she’s so quick to work with Sylar at Pinehearst, because it would give her a sense of purpose.
But before that, she’s weak, and lonely, and desperate. She talks about wanting to give up her power if it means to stop hurting which should be a big sign at how shaken she was by the events in The Butterfly Effect. On top of mourning her father and feeling lost and a lone she also has an incredible amount of guilt. She feels like it’s her fault because she helped create Sylar. Maybe if she had had the strength to leave the company, she could have saved her father. I also, honestly think part of her is somewhat glad her father is dead considering everything he did to her, and she feels guilty about that too, because no matter what, he’s her father and the only family she’s ever known. How can she hate him, even with everything he’s done to her? Her whole delusional system is broken, and she can’t help but blame herself, and she just wants out. We see her vulnerable and suicidal, begging for Sylar to kill her.
When Sylar forgives her, it’s almost like an absolution of sin and suddenly, all that pain and anger and guilt is gone because he tells her it’s not her fault and she’s all too eager to believe him. This is again where she sees that she functions a little differently from normal people by how quickly she forgives herself, and him. She just wanted an answer that didn’t leave her at blame, in doubt. And because he helps her with all that, she becomes her new focal point. He becomes Daddy number II in a way, someone she would do anything and everything for. And once she has that purpose, someone to live for, we see a lot of her old playfulness and snarkyness come back. She’s convinced they don’t need anyone but each other.
She trusted him absolutely, just like she had with her father and because of that, she ultimately died. She didn’t see his betrayal coming because she was so sure he loved her, so desperate for his love, for anyone’s love.
And ultimately, I think that’s a big part of why she didn’t fight back. Because she really thought he wouldn’t fight back. Also, he was pretty much all she had left at that point, and she had been on her own before, and it had totally sucked. She didn’t want to go through that again, didn’t know how to function on her own. So if he didn’t want her then she was better off dead. That’s my firm belief to why she didn’t fight back like she did the first time he killed her. She was tired and defeated and someone can only take so much. Everyone has limits, and everyone gives up. Considering that just a few episodes before, she had been begging him to kill her, it’s not a stretch to think that some of those suicidal wishes would still be there, under the surface. And him rejecting her would the catalyst to bring them back up once more.
Abilities:
-Electrical manipulation. Elle can create and control electricity. This can be small little shocks that just tease on unsettle people, or large shocks that can kill. She uses it in pretty much all facets of her life, even when she kisses people.
-Years of Company training.
Writing sample:
To say Elle wasn’t doing so well was probably an understatement. She’s basically become a hermit, hiding away in her apartment. She keeps her amulet on her all the time. She’s terrified Rosier or something worse will come after her, and she’s not sure she could go through that again.
Correction: she knows she couldn’t go through it again.
She doesn’t sleep much anymore. The over the counter pills aren’t cutting it. Everytime her eyes close, she sees it. She sees what Rosier did inside of her body. The women he seduced, the hearts he ripped out and burnt and ate and it makes her throw up. She’s done horrible things on her own accord, but the fact that she had no control over any of this makes it so much worse. At least when she had hurt people in the past, it had been her choice.
She can’t wait until Sylar brings her some of the harder drugs from the hospital, so she can slip with into a dreamless sleep. Her mind is filled with too much she wants to forget and too many blank spots from things she’s already forgotten. She dreams of electricity and screams and blood and sand. Her father’s disapproving face.
She misses Dean, though she’ll never admit it. Or maybe she misses the security she felt when he was around. It’s not like they had been madly in love or anything. She hadn’t loved him, she didn’t think. But she had liked him a lot. She likes to think that if he was still around he would hold her through the night, even though he probably wouldn’t. Of course, if he was around, none of this might have happened, but that’s a whole other issue. The point is he’s gone, and sure, it’s technically her fault because she killed him, but he started it. He was the one who ruined everything by cheating on her. What was she supposed to do? So now she’s alone again.
She’s alone again and it just sucks. She wishes she had taken Sylar up on his offer months ago when he begged for her but it was too late now. He had Peter and she had no one. Not that she wants Sylar like that per se, but it would be better than being alone. It doesn’t seem fair that he gets to be happy when she’s so miserable. But then again, when has life ever been fair to her?
She has friends, and people seem to actually care for once what happens to her, but she’s not sure how to deal with that. And she’s grateful, she is, but she still feels like the outcast, and she has a feeling she always will. She’ll never fit in like the Claires. She’ll never be loved like they are, and no matter what she’ll always hate them just a little for that.
She makes her way to her fridge and looks at the soup Claire left when she visited, and she feels ready to hurl again. Her stomach hurts from how much she’s thrown up. She almost thought of taking the other her’s suggestion about getting a cheerleader blood transfusion, but she has a feeling this isn’t just a physical thing. Her electricity keeps shorting out on top of everything else, and last time that had happened, it had all been in her head. Ruby had warned her that being possessed took a number on her soul, she hadn’t been kidding.
Elle closes the fridge door and goes back to her bed, where she spends most of her time, and curls up in a ball, blue sparks dancing across her skin. She wants someone to come take care of her, to tell her everything’s going to be alright. She was safe now, right? She shouldn’t be so afraid. She was raised to be a Company girl. She was raised to be better than this pathetic thing. But she’s tired. She’s so tired of trying. It seems like everything blows up in her face. She can’t do it on her own.
She needs something, but whatever it is, she’s too afraid to ask for it now.
Who’d could help her now anyways?
She’s pretty sure she’s beyond being helped.
And maybe that’s what hurts the worst.
Voice sample:
http://blueshocks.livejournal.com/38183.html
Your journal: superkappa
Contact: AIM: MoonGoddessSK plurk: superkappa
Other characters played at Passing: Cordelia
Character name: Elle Bishop
Character fandom: Heroes
Version: V2+
Canon point: Post-her death
Importing development from old game? Yes, from bravenewworldrp.
Background: http://heroeswiki.com/Elle
Changes from canon, if AU:
-The apocalypse messes with the time space continuum and poof Elle is alive.
-Elle met Dean Winchester on New Years and slept with him.
-They continued sleeping together because sex is awesome. And then feelings happen and they're retarded. So it becomes exclusive
-Claire teaches Elle how to bake an apple pie.
-Sylar begs for Elle back, Elle rejects him. She gets pissed off Dean doesn't want to fight for her.
-Elle kisses Zebra!Claire while they go shopping because lesbians totally get free stuff.
-Claire lends Elle one of her cheerleading outfits and Dean freaks out about it. No sexy times are had.
-Buffy takes Elle vampire hunting. It's awesome to watch vampires explode with electricity.
-Elle makes Dean a dinner for valentine's day. It's not great but the thought counts, right? And then more sex happened.
-Elle visits Zebra!Claire and gets stranded in South Dakota.
-Sylar picks her up and they fly back together. Elle gets super drunk. Did you know unicorns are sexual deviants.
-Dean cheats on her, so she kills him. That's totally reasonable right?!
-Ruby takes her out to kill demons to cheer herself up. And then she gets possessed. Whoops.
-Another Dean and Sam come and get the demon out of her.
-PTSD tme. Having a demon stuck in you does not help.
-Sylar swipes her sleep meds from the hospital because he's a bro.
-Brooke teaches her how to play pool. Brooke is also a bro.
-Dolphin!Claire threw Elle the best birthday party ever.
-Ruby and Elle played barbies. It was awesome. They are the best adults.
-She joins the Company again because she has no idea what to do with herself.
-She gets sad at Peter and Sylar's gay buttsex and wishes she hadn't rejected him. Sucks to be her.
-Sylar takes her to six flags and she gets to go on her first rollercoaster!!!!! YAY.
-Elle gets assigned to be Demon!Dean's partner at the Company and they have to go into the sewers to fight a waterkensis guy. Oh, and Sylar bought her a haz mat suit. The suit rips
-Some racist asshole denies Elle her slush-o fix.
-The Gentlemen come and make everyone in New York silent. Elle gets drunk in silence.
-Elle tries to make Dolphin!Claire a birthday cake and it sucks. Baking is hard work.
-Plagues also happened, and they sucked.
-The mutant registering stuff gets even worse
-The apocalypse happens, and t sucks.
-Everyone leaves. Sylar, Brooke, everyone. Elle grows more bitter.
-Elle is kidnapped by the government where Mohinder gives her the "cure" for her power.
-Her power is still gone for the moment, but should be resurfacing soon.
Personality:
It’s stated canonly that she was diagnosed as a sociopath but from the first introduction to her in Fight or Flight (2x05) we see that this is simply untrue. Yes, she gets frustrated with Ricky for not giving her in the information about Peter and kills him with what seems like no remorse, but when we see her on the phone being reprimanded, we can tell it gets to her. It’s revealed that the person she is talking to her father, and as soon as he tells her to come home, she does. This sets up their dynamic as we see it later quiet perfectly.
As the series shows more of her, it becomes clear that she’s desperate for her father’s approval. She gets shaken by the idea of him hurting her (when Noah talks about her memory modification in Cautionary Tales) so clearly she’s not a sociopath. Sociopaths don’t feel remorse or fear or the need of approval. They don’t care. But Elle does.
More than anything, in a lot of ways she’s just a giant spoiled child. She throws fits when she doesn’t get her way because she’s incredibly emotionally stunted. She does the things she does because it’s all she’s known how to be. She was trained from a young age that she needed to be a cold-hearted company girl. She’s tried to force herself into that role but the shoe never fit quite right. She’s petulant, and doesn’t know how to tell right or wrong because she was never taught how to. She will kill someone for doing something like lie to her because she literally doesn’t understand it’s wrong.
She’s also a huge flirt, but again, it’s almost in a childlike manner. For all we see her flirting with Peter and Mohinder, we see her almost surprised when Peter kissed her, almost like she had never been kissed before. Or if she had, it wasn’t often.. It seems pretty clear to me that in her interactions with men in both season 2 and season 3 she doesn’t have much actual experience. It’s just another part of her act, another show she’s putting on because she doesn’t want people to see what she’s like inside.
She builds these delusions about her interactions with people, and she buys into them well. She truly believes her father really loves her and believes in her even when he proves time and time again that he really just sees her as a tool, a means to an end. She honestly believed Peter really liked her, and was upset to find out he used her to escape.
When those said delusions are broken, she has a hard time coping with it. She usually responds in angry backlashes, because she doesn’t know how to respond, like when she chased after Peter and Adam. We especially see a more vulnerable side to her when Noah reveals her father experimented on her and wiped her memories. She searches her father’s office and computer, trying to find any files on herself, to find the truth. They’re all missing. It confirms her fear, and yet when she sees a chance to please her father (by capturing Sylar) she seizes it because no matter what, she wants his love and approval. That’s vital to her very existence. She doesn’t know how to be Elle if she’s not an agent or trying to please Daddy, so much so that she’s willing to let go of her search for the truth to keep up this delusion.
Now, for a lot of people, Elle’s drastic change in behavior in Season 3 was seen as completely OOC. I don’t fully agree.
The Elle we saw in season two was hard and fierce, but by the end of the season we saw more and more cracks into that façade. Season 3 starts off with her father dying, her powers turning on her, and her getting fired from the only job and life she has ever known, a life she has given up everything for. It’s no wonder that she finally shatters.
The first time we see her after her dismissal at Primatech she’s at the Bennet house, where she had broken in looking for Noah. She is a complete wreck. She can’t control her powers anymore, and if you read the comics leading up to this episode, it’s highly implied that the cause of this is psychosomatic as opposed to something being physically wrong with her like she and Claire assume.
The power malfunction is a large manifestation of her guilt and mixed feelings over her father’s death. Her father was cruel, and did unthinkable things to her (that she can’t remember) but he was still her father. She doesn’t know how to function without him because she’s relied on him and the Company to tell her what to do for her whole life. The idea of actual freedom terrifies her (as we see in the episode Villains, which I’ll talk about more later) and that’s probably why she’s so quick to work with Sylar at Pinehearst, because it would give her a sense of purpose.
But before that, she’s weak, and lonely, and desperate. She talks about wanting to give up her power if it means to stop hurting which should be a big sign at how shaken she was by the events in The Butterfly Effect. On top of mourning her father and feeling lost and a lone she also has an incredible amount of guilt. She feels like it’s her fault because she helped create Sylar. Maybe if she had had the strength to leave the company, she could have saved her father. I also, honestly think part of her is somewhat glad her father is dead considering everything he did to her, and she feels guilty about that too, because no matter what, he’s her father and the only family she’s ever known. How can she hate him, even with everything he’s done to her? Her whole delusional system is broken, and she can’t help but blame herself, and she just wants out. We see her vulnerable and suicidal, begging for Sylar to kill her.
When Sylar forgives her, it’s almost like an absolution of sin and suddenly, all that pain and anger and guilt is gone because he tells her it’s not her fault and she’s all too eager to believe him. This is again where she sees that she functions a little differently from normal people by how quickly she forgives herself, and him. She just wanted an answer that didn’t leave her at blame, in doubt. And because he helps her with all that, she becomes her new focal point. He becomes Daddy number II in a way, someone she would do anything and everything for. And once she has that purpose, someone to live for, we see a lot of her old playfulness and snarkyness come back. She’s convinced they don’t need anyone but each other.
She trusted him absolutely, just like she had with her father and because of that, she ultimately died. She didn’t see his betrayal coming because she was so sure he loved her, so desperate for his love, for anyone’s love.
And ultimately, I think that’s a big part of why she didn’t fight back. Because she really thought he wouldn’t fight back. Also, he was pretty much all she had left at that point, and she had been on her own before, and it had totally sucked. She didn’t want to go through that again, didn’t know how to function on her own. So if he didn’t want her then she was better off dead. That’s my firm belief to why she didn’t fight back like she did the first time he killed her. She was tired and defeated and someone can only take so much. Everyone has limits, and everyone gives up. Considering that just a few episodes before, she had been begging him to kill her, it’s not a stretch to think that some of those suicidal wishes would still be there, under the surface. And him rejecting her would the catalyst to bring them back up once more.
Abilities:
-Electrical manipulation. Elle can create and control electricity. This can be small little shocks that just tease on unsettle people, or large shocks that can kill. She uses it in pretty much all facets of her life, even when she kisses people.
-Years of Company training.
Writing sample:
To say Elle wasn’t doing so well was probably an understatement. She’s basically become a hermit, hiding away in her apartment. She keeps her amulet on her all the time. She’s terrified Rosier or something worse will come after her, and she’s not sure she could go through that again.
Correction: she knows she couldn’t go through it again.
She doesn’t sleep much anymore. The over the counter pills aren’t cutting it. Everytime her eyes close, she sees it. She sees what Rosier did inside of her body. The women he seduced, the hearts he ripped out and burnt and ate and it makes her throw up. She’s done horrible things on her own accord, but the fact that she had no control over any of this makes it so much worse. At least when she had hurt people in the past, it had been her choice.
She can’t wait until Sylar brings her some of the harder drugs from the hospital, so she can slip with into a dreamless sleep. Her mind is filled with too much she wants to forget and too many blank spots from things she’s already forgotten. She dreams of electricity and screams and blood and sand. Her father’s disapproving face.
She misses Dean, though she’ll never admit it. Or maybe she misses the security she felt when he was around. It’s not like they had been madly in love or anything. She hadn’t loved him, she didn’t think. But she had liked him a lot. She likes to think that if he was still around he would hold her through the night, even though he probably wouldn’t. Of course, if he was around, none of this might have happened, but that’s a whole other issue. The point is he’s gone, and sure, it’s technically her fault because she killed him, but he started it. He was the one who ruined everything by cheating on her. What was she supposed to do? So now she’s alone again.
She’s alone again and it just sucks. She wishes she had taken Sylar up on his offer months ago when he begged for her but it was too late now. He had Peter and she had no one. Not that she wants Sylar like that per se, but it would be better than being alone. It doesn’t seem fair that he gets to be happy when she’s so miserable. But then again, when has life ever been fair to her?
She has friends, and people seem to actually care for once what happens to her, but she’s not sure how to deal with that. And she’s grateful, she is, but she still feels like the outcast, and she has a feeling she always will. She’ll never fit in like the Claires. She’ll never be loved like they are, and no matter what she’ll always hate them just a little for that.
She makes her way to her fridge and looks at the soup Claire left when she visited, and she feels ready to hurl again. Her stomach hurts from how much she’s thrown up. She almost thought of taking the other her’s suggestion about getting a cheerleader blood transfusion, but she has a feeling this isn’t just a physical thing. Her electricity keeps shorting out on top of everything else, and last time that had happened, it had all been in her head. Ruby had warned her that being possessed took a number on her soul, she hadn’t been kidding.
Elle closes the fridge door and goes back to her bed, where she spends most of her time, and curls up in a ball, blue sparks dancing across her skin. She wants someone to come take care of her, to tell her everything’s going to be alright. She was safe now, right? She shouldn’t be so afraid. She was raised to be a Company girl. She was raised to be better than this pathetic thing. But she’s tired. She’s so tired of trying. It seems like everything blows up in her face. She can’t do it on her own.
She needs something, but whatever it is, she’s too afraid to ask for it now.
Who’d could help her now anyways?
She’s pretty sure she’s beyond being helped.
And maybe that’s what hurts the worst.
Voice sample:
http://blueshocks.livejournal.com/38183.html