It seems that every time I get just a little scared and a little uncertain about the future, Edgar and I have it out in another huge fight. I guess it ends up that way because neither of us can hold our tempers...what should be a simple conversation ends up being blown way out of proportion. I don't really know if anything was resolved, but he ( Read more... )

It's amazing how one little thing snow balls into every other little thing and all of a sudden there's an explosion. He doesn't even know what's wrong...but fuck him, because he can bitch a fit any time he wants at work but I can't...it's bullshit, he knows it, I know it...so he can go FUCK HIMSELF because I'm not going to let him fuck me ( Read more... )

In reflection of those couple of days that Edgar was super moody...we bounced back differently then we did before. He got over it, and then we just continued on. Before it would have been awkward for days. It's amazing how far we've come in nearly 7 months, how our relationship has evolved, how incredibly happy he makes me and how much he adds to ( Read more... )

I imagined it was going to be a fun night. I'm a little irritated ( Read more... )

We had the most amazing time in Canada and now all of a sudden it's like we're falling back into this pattern. I know it's partially my fault. He does have a point, when he askes me to just leave him alone...I should. I just can't seem to respect that, I want answers and I want answers now...goddamn...why can't I keep my mouth shut. If you love ( Read more... )

There was a time when we all shared the same dream. We'd graduate high school, get the hell out of Arlington, attend the University of Washington and show the world that we were strong, independent, and successful women who weren't going to let where they came from hold them back. It seemed like we were on the same track, until we found out Jessie ( Read more... )

Things are great right now, except I'm bored out of my mind. I seriously have expressed aloud several times how much I cannot wait until Tierney, Kira and Kelsie get back into town. I wants ta party and I want to do the college thing once again...it's been way too long ( Read more... )

It seems like the smallest things can trigger a sensation of foreboding. I freak out over little things...mostly they are silent freak outs where I leave Edgar wondering why things were so great seconds before and now I'm quiet, unresponsive and sometimes teary eyed. I don't know what's wrong or why I feel so insecure all of a sudden ( Read more... )

Sure he creates a lot of tears, but he can dry them as wells.

I may not be there yet, I am closer than I was yesterday.

You know what sound I didn't hear at 8 o'clock in the morning...every morning for the last month and a half? The phone ringing. Now that fucking bitch that just won't die or go away is back from China. Now my boyfriend will get 2 or 3 calls a day from his estranged ex-girlfriend that he just can't let go of. It was so nice not having this added ( Read more... )