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[bluestripes]

Hmmm. I guess I'll dust this thing off. Facebook sucks for these kinds of things, not that I do anything but lurk there anyway. "Lurk." I recently got into the habit of browsing 4chan when I'm nervously avoiding issues. The kind of issues that come up when I cut myself off from the world, or I'm stressed out over something. That site is so

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[progressinacan]

I had a facebook for about a week before I decided it wasn't for me. I would have just lurked there, and TBH I didn't give a shit about what anyone there had to say anyway. Meaningless dribble

[bluestripes]

I guess that when it comes down to it, my struggle comes from the fact that I'm not happy. From there I seek what it is that I've either tasted and liked or I've never had any experience with and think I might like. It's really about exploration. I came to memphis to explore, inward and outward. I think there is more to be done, especially inwardly. The best way to do that, I think, is to be with people. Talk with them and get to know them and simultaneously get to know myself. I think this is true, from the tastes I'd gotten from improv and the things that I read. I'm not proposing that I do something that I think I won't like in general, but something I think I would like to do, but some sort of fear in the moment keeps me back

[progressinacan]

I think you're wrong about that last part. The old days were satisfying. It's just that it's very difficult for a human to find the same things to be perpetually satisfying.

Our interests and locations intersected for enjoyable years. I think you were eager and ready to move on far before I was, so I stayed the same for a bit, futilely hoping things could go back to the way they were (this refers not just to you, but to all my friends). This futile hope eventually developed into frustration and depression before I was able to move on.

I didn't move on from my interests. I just moved on from my old friends. If the day comes when you ever feel like being interested in science/politics/manga/videogames/boardgames/cardgames/movies/TV/books again, I'll be here to listen/talk/play/watch. While I think you've kept a piece of those interests with you, they occupy a much smaller portion of who you are now.

Or at least they do outwardly.

When I start making bank, I'll try to offer you and my other old friends a place to play and socialize

[palomaxbella]

I don't really know how to be the kind of person who just goes out and talks to people. But I do tend to latch onto people like that. It comforts me to a certain level and I live vicariously through the others ability to just talk to people. Sometimes I feel like Teller from Pen and Teller. The silent other half that says more by not saying anything, whether it is in his actions or the way Pen speaks for the both of them