I hate him and I love him. Don't ask my why.
It's the way I feel, that's all, and it hurts.
-Catullus

I'll explain later. Off to class and work!

Sorry about the other night. I was just really upset and didn't know what to do. It's been a real emotional roller coaster lately and I've started to go up again. I mean I'm still in love with Mick, and I wish I wasn't, but what can you do ( Read more... )

I feel so utterly useless. I feel so so sad. And I got what I wanted for the most part. I just feel so sad right now. Like the curl in a ball and sleep until I die-cry. And I don't know why.

I started crying last night to Mick. And I'm crying now and I don't know why.

Will someone come over and hold me while I cry?

Today is a big day for me. I can't say why, and I don't really know how I'll be later on, but it's a really big day.

To be completely honest I'm excited to get onto tonight. I think I'll be in a pretty good mood all day :)

I'm really emo. It might be because I've been hanging out with two very emo kids. Mick and Elyse. It was fun, I dyed Elyse's hair and we talked about stuff, definately nothing on my mind ( Read more... )

I am EXHAUSTED. This past week has just been a killer ( Read more... )

Don't ever go to college. Okay so I know I'm not technically in college, but I do still have to go through the same process signing up for classes. I stilled wanted my schedule to be Mon,Wed, Fri so I could work all day on Tuesdays and Thursdays if and when I get a job. All I wanted to do was find one class and it didn't really matter what class ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted. 13 hours at Kiddie Park isnt very agreeable with me. I'm totally in love with Mick's CD collection. Especially The Postal Service, the new Emery, and the new Silverstein. It might help that I'm practically in love with the owner of them, but that's besides the point. He wore girls jeans today and most of the time I find it ( Read more... )

I've had a pretty busy week. Monday I got out of class about a half hour early which made me very happy. I like when my psychology teacher doesn't plan lessons well ( Read more... )

Well, you know how I said I was over Mickey? I lied. I like him again. Today it started to rain really bad at 8 so I didn't have to do much clean up crew, so we talked a little bit about stuff. Then I picked the train and it can't run when it's raining so I didn't do anything from 8-2. I talked to Mickey for honestly 4 hours straight. He's in ( Read more... )