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[blueyedgal57]

life should have meaning, when i look around i see nothing. there are times when the world can overwhelm me so much i simply want to throw my hands up and give up. i try to be a fighter, but i seem to loose all my battles. just when i can see the clear blue in the sky, i feel my heart sink and die. i have lost someone so dear to me, that i cannot

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[erin1457]

This doesnt have anything to do with me..but I am a person that Nadia confides in very often and it seems to me that although you say this is a lie, then why has this happened more than once? Why does it seem to me that your always saying your sorry to her? I dont get it..

[blueyedgal57]

exactly this has nothing to do with u so why comment and say u would have taken care of me a long time ago. i have never been mean to u ever! this has never happened that i am aware of and i hear people gossip about me all the time but i confront and ask, rather then blowing up a rumor. this is all drama! and there is no need for this. i duno if ur trying to give her advice and help tahts fine, but dont bash me! i am a good person and i love nadia like my sister, so stop trying to change that

[aly1223]

hey gurl whos erin1457, whats goin on with u and nadia babe u know u can talk to me about anything we need to hang out.

[blueyedgal57]

yes we do need to hang out. i need to start being with my friends.. how was your vacation?

[sunburst_eyes]

we'll talk about it all soon.

im just really confused about everything. and after everything ive been thru with pretty much every single one of my friends, its really hard for me to believe/trust anyone anymore. but we will talk

[blueyedgal57]

IM NOT ANYONE. im not a basic friend. i mean do u get mad at everyone and tell them to go fuck off? that hurt, even if u decided to believe me, im still hurt! i cant understand why off a RUMOR from a girl u've know like 4 months! that u get so mad and u've known me how long??? like 2 yrs about! i mean.....

[sunburst_eyes]

ok, u keep on saying that you're hurt...how the hell do you think im feeling? even if its just a rumor, its a rumor that seriously broke my heart. its not only amanda that told me that, derrick also told me...so thats why im all ISHIUHSDU about it. i want to believe you, i want to believe you sooooo badly because you are one of my bestfriends, but im just so confused about it all. i want to get all of you together and then talk, i think thats the only way things are going to get solved.

i just dont know what to think or do.

[blueyedgal57]

ya know what, im not having no community meeting! and derrick told me things too, so screw it, thats fine, dont trust me dont belive me, i dont need a friend. u can have amanda