I've lost my mind,
I've lost my heart,
I'm searching blind
alone and dark

sunken drunken
bitter smiles
endless fears
tears and miles

sleepless losses
pillow tosses
frustrated
penatrated
deeply, costless

how I sit and wonder,
will it ever end?
start? am I alone
or just in the dark?

Hmm, I guess I need to update this thing every once and a while. So I guess I'll first talk about my fishies! :) They had alot of babies last night. only 2 fish have given birth so far but more will be coming soon. I need to get a couple more tanks so I'll have enough room. Its a weird hobbie I know but its really interesting to me and it ( Read more... )

sometimes I just get so mad what am I supposed to do pretend like it doesnt bother me? Maybe... I dont know. as usual im learning more about myself than I am about others, I dont want to be like I was but I dont want to change so much that Im not the same person anymore? Who ever said growing up is'nt easy should have informed me, Its more like ( Read more... )

I'm drunk and having a really good time for the first time in a while. I really think things are starting to work out for me and I finally feel like things are going to change. Its hard to go through life experiencing doubt but finally my luck is starting to change........ or maybe its my out look? Who knows but I love it either way and Im so ( Read more... )

So heres to another waste of time. I thought you cared but i was wrong again. I guess I should have stopped myself from loving you a long time ago but I really thought you'd come around. Well I was wrong what else is new. It doesnt really matter anymore though because I was getting used to being alone and I think maybe its best. I really did ( Read more... )

How the hell did this happen? what the fuck went wrong? I was trying my hardest to do everything for her and I feel like I've been taken advantage of. Yes Im I guy and yes im hurt am i supposed to pretend that nothing bothers me. What am I supposed to do, ignore all the mean things said about me? pretend they dont mean anything? How am I just ( Read more... )