There is a plant in my window sill.  Outside of having something to care for, of having something green, of having something beautiful, it’s nice to have something just to watch.  To watch how the leaves are formed, how they bend more every day to catch the sun and how they turn back around if you move it in the other direction, to watch how them ( Read more... )

sigh.  all my close friends that are left on campus right now are christians.  which is cool, except that it seems to be resulting in me wondering if i'm doing something wrong in this not believing in God anymore thing.   

that same gut-wrenching feeling that sat at the middle of the relationship between my parents and me is back, only this time things are reversed and it's my best friend that's getting separated ( Read more... )

i finally might have a model and a general idea for a species to apply it to for my experimental design for this scholarship ( Read more... )

fall break and it feels like i can do one of two things well- get back to where i want to be with the scholarship that will be due in the near future, or strengthen my hold on sanity and my sense of self that seems to be slipping as of late.  one is immediately more important, but the other may become necessary, and may impact success at both.  ( Read more... )

the new rat #3 is dead now ( Read more... )

i really want to go home ( Read more... )

tonight is one of those times when i look back nostalgically on the very very distant past when my parents could still help me with my homework.  it would be nice if some of my good friends here were also bio majors so i would be able to bounce things off them sometimes.

a way to address the broad topic of how social behavior that involves a cost to the actor evolves (mechanistically) or how it can be maintained (chrs. of the social structure or surrounding environment) in a way that adds something to the debate that has been raging since the 1960's and is now a large tangled mess of inconsistencies with ( Read more... )

"She blinked with the half effort of attempting to blur back a dream, trying to rid herself of the peculiar sensation rippling through her.  On command her mind was already reforming its lines, but the feeling was still persistent- the impression that her skin was just about ready to shake off and let loose something with wings.  It’s strange how ( Read more... )