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This summer my whole life has been kind of like, up in the air, I guess, since david kissed lacy. The dust has begun to settle. The best feeling I can remember is the one I get when I havent eaten all day and I am in bed frezing and my stomach feels like it might eat through itself. Am I sick? Is it terribly wrong to feel that way and love it? I don't know, I'm lost anymore. I'm completely excited to get away to college. What's been happening here? Last night david was driving me home and candace called him, he said he couldnt talk, because he only had one hand (because he broke the other hand on someone's face) and I heard her say, are you with kristen? and he said yes, and she said, well call me back after she's gone. And then when he calls her back later she goes on this rant about how brandon wrote this hot girl an email saying that everyone in the band thinks she's so hot and theyre all single. everyone just calls my boyfriend! everyone feels the need to express how cute his ass is, and what a bitch his girlfriend is right now (um, me). and then he goes and writes comments on lacy's myspace about how everything will be okay as long as he's got her sexy ass. and i just spent the whole day coddling him and taking care of him because he broke his hand, i'd just like to know who else he expected to do that for him. I am completely obsessed by him and lacy, my mind is too curious to forget this. last night i wrote her an email just asking her if she wanted to be with him. She wrote me back saying that david loves me and she knows that because he tells her and they are good friends but that's it and that everyone makes mistakes. i wish she would have told me they were in love, it would make everything so easy. i just want to go away and leave this all behind.