Hygeia

[blushinivy]

So I have been slowly realizing that I'm not doing well.

I joined the Hygeia Foundation.

It's a foundation that deals with prenatal and neonatal loss.

Welcome to Hygeia®. Hygeia®, symbolic of the Greek mythological goddess of health and healing for which it is named, is an international community of compassion, empathy and support

Comments

[idle___hands]

you are not the only one crying after reading this. it is beautiful in its tragic but hopeful truth.

i love you and please let me know how it goes tomorrow - i am betting on boy but you know i must be a stubborn noncomformist

:)

[blushinivy]

Thanks Ruby,

I am thinking girl, but what do I know. I talked to my Aunt Snooky today and she said she knew what she was having. So trust your instincts.

Who knows.

Lou and I talked about the 'what if's' for tomorrow.

I told him about this story and we talked about what to do. . . if we were in that position. I know it sounds morbid, but I'm terrified something could go wrong. Lou said the same thing. He was like 'it's not like I want it or I think about it all the time, but this has been so hard for us, I kinda expect something to go wrong.'

I agree. I know it sounds so morbid, but I'm so scared that something will happen. Something will go wrong or will have went wrong and I'll be in labor tomorrow.

What should be a happy time for me is clouded by paranoia. I just wish I knew everything was alright.

[learningtopleez]

*tearful hugs*

continued support and strength are being constantly sent your way hun

[blushinivy]

*big hugs back* Thank you.

I wish I was stupid, that I had ignorance to ignore all this or not be aware of it. Because I'm terrified of it all.

Ignorance is bliss. I never thought that I would be regretful about knowing things.