I'm rather passionate about the decisions I make in life, so it's no suprize that I wanted to have a home birth.

Those of you just joining this blog, I have had a bad time with pregnancy and my mother had four still births and a miscarrage, then she adopted me.

When I told her I wanted to have a midwifery practice she was very much against it.

I ( Read more... )

I have a couple things going on in my mind right now. I'm gonna try to get them out in a logical fashion.

I've been kinda pissed off at the opinion of some, that parenting is a 'right.' But is it? I have mounting medical bills that the insurance company is refusing to pay. All for infertility. And not even the classic infertility, but for rpl. Right ( Read more... )

Everyone is pregnant. . .didn't you know ( Read more... )

I have been spending the last few days worrying about nothing, or I would hope worrying about nothing.

I have been having tummy cramps, they feel similar to the kicks, but are diffrent. It's not the same. While I'm probably just being overly cautious and paranoid, I worry.

I actually let my hair down some today and looked at bedroom decorations for ( Read more... )

Today is calmer, yesterday I was all angsty and aggressive.

The baby is apparently a soccer star and I have to pee just about every hour now.

Good times.

Monday is my next appointment with the midwife. I have several questions for her. . .mostly about what I can and can’t do. My hair is driving me insane. I haven’t had it done since ( Read more... )

I'm on a roll today. . . .quiet for a while then I'm all ranty. YEY hormones!! :)

Those of you who didn't know, there was a woman who not only killed her 3 week old son, she ate him.

No, serious here.

Relatives of the Texas mother of a 3 1/2-week-old boy found dismembered in his bedroom said she was diagnosed with schizophrenia and postpartum ( Read more... )

Now I wish I could be all 'yey!! 30 days and we find out what we are having!!' While that is the case. . .I was more specifically speaking about Morgan Sperlock's show: 30 Days. Basically it takes two polar opposites and puts them together for 30 days so they can actually stop living in fear and try and open their eyes.

The ones that really ( Read more... )

Been a while. . ..sorry about that. I really am.

I guess the time gets to all of us, that or I'm just ordinary.  :)

I told my Mother how I felt about the wedding, she talked to her friend and was mortified that people talked to me that way. I found out things that happened behind scenes that while it doesn't excuse the behavior, it explains it.

The ( Read more... )

Today I went to the wedding of a family friend and I left with a very bad taste in my mouth ( Read more... )

I seem to spend so much of my life waiting.

Waiting to get pregnant

Waiting to miscarry

Waiting to see a doctor

Waiting for a movie

Waiting for dinner

Waiting for . . .everything. . . you would think I would be better at it. So today when I went to the Midwife to be seen and I waited for almost an hour, you would think I would be more . . .understanding ( Read more... )